| When a person has been sexually and physically abused practically their whole life, they are not allowed to cry. When a person splits off into parts, the parts hold these emotions for a very long time.
I am now safe. That means I am allowed to cry. I am allowed to grieve. As my parts get closer the emotions of sadness, confusion, anger, etc, come crashing in on me all at once. I am now feeling the grief of losing a childhood, losing parents, losing friends, losing those I love.
I was hurt. People who live in a split world are very far behind. Sometimes the pain is right there even though it happened a long time ago. But to the child it happened just now.
I don't expect anyone to understand.
I know I'm supposed to "get over it, " and there are those out there who have little compassion. I don't expect compassion. I'm just making a point.
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Who I am does not depend on your opinion of me. Sorry.
You might try the next guy.
A barrel of monkeys is not fun at all.........in fact, the thought is quite horrifying. | 
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