Beyond the Horizon....the life of a christian girl (2)

Lilly of the Valley · #1 24th February 2009, 07:27 PM

I was sitting, reading a book for my Lit. class and then thought about the paper I recieved the other day. My face turned to a frown ( I think...LOL) and I knew what needed to be done. I pulled out the paper and tore it in half.

Sounds kinda absurd, but it needed to be done. As soon as I did that I felt a release. Now, I'm the type of person that keeps papers I get back from teachers. So this is the first one in my college career (or school in general, that I recall) that I did this to. I mean, it was well written and there were no glaring errors. Sure it could have gone a bit deeper or explained perhaps a few more specific scenes, but for how I was doing it and the miniscule amount of pages she provided, I did well. I know that. So what she said doesn't really bear weight since she was clearly HUNTING for flaws. I mean, I've had several classes where the professor said that the papers had to be "perfect"...dead serious. That means nearly perfect grammar and everything and I still got 'A's on those! Sooooo...that kinda says something....Anywho...next paper I'll try something a bit different, but I'm not going to worry about it.

On a happy note...tomorrow I try again w/ the one dude

I hope I can not overthink and just give him the question sheet and then proceed to take his picture for the project...LOL. No clue how he'll react to that.

Lilly of the Valley · #2 25th February 2009, 10:15 PM

Okay, I went to the bank, came out to the car and find out I left the keys in the car! Thankfully I was close enough to home I could walk...like 1-2 miles. I actually kinda enjoyed it since I've done that distance before. And it was like in the 50s! That was 100% the Lord

Sidenote...in the bank there was a guy teller, probably earlly 20s

, who've I've encountered before there and after announcing his area was open he recognized me when I approached and his face lit up! Dead serious. Our eyes locked briefly, then I looked down and told him what I wanted done. He disappered for a moment and returned. Well, he handed me my ID and such and our eyes met again...LOL...and I happened to accidently brush against his fingers when I grabbed the money. *laughs* Okay, maybe I'm looking too into this...LOL. It doesn't really matter, after my other dude misinterpretations, I'm not assuming nothing. He is kinda cute though

I feel like I've been going kinda boy crazy lately! Dude!

Lilly of the Valley · #3 26th February 2009, 07:44 PM

YESSSSS!!! Now I know the one guy's name!

Not the one from the bank...lol...the one at school who I want to do something nice for. I am soo happy! Now...I just need to lean on the Lord's grace to ask him, basically, if I can do something nice for him...LOL. I prefer surprise, but I have no choice...he's not on any social networking site that I know of...so there's only one way to learn about him and such--in person

Funny thing, in Geo. the teacher at the end of class expressed how bored she was w/ the class since we were bored...LOL. I mean, come on. It's 8am. Who on earth feels like learning at that time, much less debating or something? I sure don't, dude! I'm not looking forward to stupid Eng. tomorrow...except for seeing the one guy and such to ask him my question...lol.

When it comes to the dude at the bank, I was thinking about it all yesterday and even some this morning. I don't know. But his face definitely did light up and fill w/ a pretty cute and large smile as soon as he saw me.....interesting...LOL. I mean, tellers have to be polite, but not like that.

Anywho...I don't want to think about it. Next time I'm checking his left ring finger to be sure there isn't anything on it!!!! I didn't see anything the other two times I've encountered him...so that's good!

Lilly of the Valley · #4 27th February 2009, 08:11 PM

Well, after having to take a crazy insane alternate route to school because of some sort of emergency going on on my normal route, I finally arrived at school. Well, the wind was blowing and it was wet...so I rushed to the bathroom to check my freshly curled hair and guess what? It was a frizz ball mess! Earlier it looked great, so obviously the wind, rain, and moist air messed it up. I had only one bobby pin and no scrunchy or anything to pull my hair up. So I dug all in my purse and blessedly found this knoted thing of rubber band. It worked and held my hair up into a bun. Thankfully I actually didn't look to bad, so that was good...lol.

Anywho...I was slightly cracking out from all that had happened and as I waited for the time for my class to start in the lobby I read. Well, folks arrived and sat at other benches and eventually I saw out of the side of my eye a guy arrive and then sit beside me. I looked and it was HIM! The one dude I wanted to do something for!!!! I knew 100% the Lord was again opening a door. And He was practically handing the opprotunity to me on a silver platter! Nonetheless I was kinda nervous and even started to laugh w/in myself...LOL (nervous reaction sometimes). Anywho...lol...I forced myself to ask him and he agreed and I even got a photo of him! Yaya!!! The Lord is good!

Lilly of the Valley · #5 1st March 2009, 04:30 PM

Next week is midterms! I'm happy because that means I only have to go to school twice and I'm done! Then right after that is spring break! *dances* But...this week coming up, i.e. March 2-5, I have to work a silent auction on M, W, and F after class. You're talking 3 hrs. of boredom. Good part, I can get some other school gunk done while I'm there.

Tomorrow I plan on giving the one guy my gift!

I think he'll freak out in a good way because how I did it is totally unexpected! I can hardly wait!

Lilly of the Valley · #6 2nd March 2009, 04:23 PM

I gave him the drawings and....

He liked them!

I am relieved and pleased. Last night I had a freaky dream, which included me giving him the art, him not really liking it and then giving them back to me!

Thank goodness that didn't happen. Anywho...we were in a group as well today for class and after speaking, he turned to me and said, "Good job" grinning. lol Good stuff, dude. Anywho, he did that before as well. He's pretty nice....but I DO NOT and WILL NOT have a crush on him....LOL. I am determined!

Lilly of the Valley · #7 5th March 2009, 01:05 PM

Okay, I studied for like two weeks and still struggled on the stupid Geo. test today! What on earth! Man! I honestly have no clue what my semester grades will be at the end of the semester. I just want to hurry and survive and do the study abroad trip and be happy. That's about the only positive this semester, getting to go out of the country for 2 weeks.

Driving wise....dude! I was in the car and this lady was blow drying and such her hair WHILE DRIVING!!! Can you believe that! How on earth can you drive doing that? Folks are just so insane.....no wonder there are accidents every day. Is it so hard to just pull into a parking lot and do make up, hair, or phone conversations? Or better yet, don't even get into the car and do that gunk inside a building! *raises hands in amazement*

Boywise....

....(now that I've cooled off from that rant...LOL)....another dude has caught my eye. He's in both my classes and is kinda cute and definitely smart! I like that. He has intelligent answers in class. I just happened to glance at him a few times today...LOL. I don't like him or anything, I just think he's kinda cute...lol. I saw him look at me a couple times but I'm pretty sure it meant nothing....like usual w/ guys...

Lilly of the Valley · #8 6th March 2009, 07:51 PM

Okay, I saw 'Z' today!!!....from last semester

Anywho...I thought I was over him, even after seeing him in toward the beginning of this semester. Boy was I wrong! Well:

I was sitting in the lobby again for the silent auction and I look and see this guy walking quickly and instantly recognize his face as 'Z's' but I'm not sure. After he walks by I look at the back of his head and his build and hair and etc seem to match. But I'm still unsure, so kinda try not to think about it. But...when I first noticed his face I got really nervous suddenly since it could've been him. Well...after a bit some girls were giving away free hugs (LOL) and this group of guys from the opposite way that I had saw the guy that looked like 'Z' walking. I look and it's him! Looking right at me w/ a pleasant semi-smile on his face! Yayayayayaya! I don't know how he feels about me or anything, but I'm glad he at least doesn't dislike me or anything

But anywho...definitely still have some feelings toward him. The messed up part is that I wanted to say 'hey' to him the next time I walked past him, but the 1st time he was speeding by and I wasn't sure it was him and the second time there were a group of dudes right there. Terd! I want to say hi to him in person some time this semester, dude!

Weird thing...I really want to be friends w/ him. No clue why, really. I mean, we're already aquantinces (spelled wrong!) and such after last semester

, but I want to like hang out w/ him or something (in a friend way of course). Terd! lol.

Lilly of the Valley · #9 7th March 2009, 09:42 PM

I have made it the ENTIRE day w/o sweets!! I am so pleased w/ myself! But...since it is getting kinda late, I feel like having one...like a cookie or something as a reward...LOL. I'll see...

Anywho...this morning I managed to get done w/ school gunk. Tomorrow I have more..........OH NO!! I just remembered I forgot to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well...too late now! I ain't reading anything for school at this time of evening dude!

Lilly of the Valley · #10 9th March 2009, 04:41 PM

Well, today I savored two delicious chocolate cookies

Dude were they good and a reward for only eating ONE sweet yesterday! I didn't even have a craving for nothing since I was so filled up on fruits, veggies, and whole grains. My years of eating healthy have finally paid off! Yaya!

Boy wise...guess what? I found out the one guy...not the one I drew or 'Z' (thank goodness!!!!!!! I still really like 'Z'

)...but the one I just recently kinda got interested in for some reason....well...he has a girlfriend! Terd! Now, I'm not super ticked or anything...LOL. I not angry or annoyed at all really. It's more of a small 1-2 week crush anyway...lol. But it's still kind of a bummer. Weird thing....lately...maybe it's just because I've finally really noticed him...he seems to be looking at me. Now, not anything messed up...which is good because of his girlfriend...but I'm still wanting to analyze it. Like today for example, he had to present in front of the class and then suddenly in the middle of his talking our eyes met for a few seconds. LOL...that was...interesting... Him having a g/f makes me think it probably (and hopefully) meant nothing, though for some reason I'm kinda jarred by it. Maybe because I like him.....but maybe because something funky was going on...LOL. I don't know. Anywho...there is some kind of drama undercurrent. So I don't know what's going on.