Beyond the Horizon....the life of a christian girl (2)

Lilly of the Valley · #71 25th August 2009, 11:50 AM

Okay, first of all....I am so weary of folks talking garbage about Obama. I mean, just months ago the world was going crazy over him being president and rooting him on and now just as quickly everyone deplores him and despises him....here in America that is. It's ashame and foolish how inconsistant humans are. He isn't perfect and no way on earth can on human man fix all the ills of the nation. Come on. I'm 21 and know that...all these 30 plus old individuals should know that too. It's ashame. He is still the president and deserves respect. I felt similar with Bush. He made some mistakes but he was still president at the time and thus deserved respect for that position which he was voted into by people to begin w/. *rolls eyes*

Anyway....on a happy note....yesterday I was walking to class (a class of which the professor never showed up!!!!!!!!!!!) and this guy walked by and looked right at me and said, "What's up?". I smiled and kept walking. Okay...here's the thing. I'm kinda thinking it MAY have been 'Z'. But I don't know! It kind of looked like him, but I didn't get a super good look at him because it happened fast. But he had the same heights, build, and similar features....especially cheek bones. But his eyes didn't look blue. BUT, the last time I encountered 'Z' his eyes didn't appear blue due to how the light was hitting them. I don't know! It's been bugging since last night. I mean, it could've been 'Z' that said hey!!! Which is like a good thing and means I don't have to say that to him since he beat me to it! I don't know. One minuet I'm sure it's 'Z' and then I suddenly think it's not. Man! Hopefully I definitely for sure run into 'Z' so I won't wonder forever....lol But one thing I keep thinking of is last semester the first time of three or so I saw him and at first I wasn't sure it was him either...until like 30min. later I saw him again walking slower and looking right at me.....so this could like totally be the same kind of thing.

Lilly of the Valley · #72 28th August 2009, 10:58 PM

Okay, dropped the one class that I showed up and the professor wasn't there. The second day he was there, but how he was doing the class wasn't what I had signed up for and was WAY too new age-like. No thanks. I replaced it instead with a Theology which will study scripture...the right way...LOL.

You know what...I wish crushes and such could be cut on and off. Guess what stinkin' happened again. I shouldn't be surprised because once I think a guy is cool but "don't have a crush on him", clearly I'm starting to crush on the dude I find. Anyway...this time it's that one guy from church I thought was cute but supposedly didn't like in that way. I'm pretty much over any of the other crushes or they're dormant. Messed up part...the dude has a g/f again! I hate that! I don't want to like a dude that has a g/f!!!!!!!!!! It's messed up and weirds me out kinda. I really want to get over it. What makes this messed up though is it's not school. It's church! So you're talking distraction during worship and probably even service itself! That's not good. So.....I'm taking like 2-3 sundays off so I can get myself together. Not just because I kinda like him. Because last sunday was the start of an interesting set of events all of which inevitably involve him and will make it kinda weird for me to be at church. I'll be so paranoid. I mean, there's no drama and I'm almost entirely sure this crush thing is one sided (Good!!!) so it's all about how I'll feel stiff, paranoid, and plain out distracted at church unless I get myself together and maybe even get over him over the next weeks.

MOMENTS LATER: haha! I reread some posts and realized I already admitted to liking him! Hahaha! Well, I guess it was a bit more intense than I thought after last sunday....lol

Lilly of the Valley · #73 2nd September 2009, 02:26 PM

Welp! That one crush was quite short-term...which I kinda had a feeling about. So, I'm over that dude! LOL! Good part, the dude I've liked pretty much since last fall semester at school may still like me! *claps* I'm so happy! Interesting thing though, outside on my way to the car, this one guy w/ a baseball cap walking toward me walks by and looks point blank at me as I'm walking. I wasn't looking at him, but saw him from my 'p' vision (can't spell it...lol). Was that 'Z'? I have no clue. It probably was

But I'm not getting my hopes up!

Also, I am so sick of flies! There is a fly somewhere in my room but I cannot see it. I honestly think it's trapped in my bed frame. It's made in such a way a fly could totally get trapped.

Lilly of the Valley · #74 3rd September 2009, 06:16 PM

Welp, now there's a whole new thing of president bashing. He's doing this school speech and folks in congress or something have sent lesson plans to teachers and folks are flipping out calling it "indoctrination" and such. Please. Being forced to learn evolution and answer questions based on that theory stated as 'fact' in classes is far worse IMO than what he is doing. Besides, teachers will say and do what they want. It's not like the govt. is forcing these folks to tell kids whatever. Plus, parents ultimately have control of their own kid and can remove them from class that day or something. It's stupid. What's the big deal? Seriously....

Lilly of the Valley · #75 7th September 2009, 09:13 PM

I feel like a blooming idiot.......lol. I honestly wish I never had crushes...ever! They are so stupid and fickle and you end up feeling stupid, dude! Okay, got on this site and was looking for someone and lo and behold I see a new profile pic of you know who with a girl!!!!!!!!!!!! Now, it may just be a friend, but still. My heart sunk as soon as I saw it (which was like an hour ago) and I still feel blah as a result.

Lilly of the Valley · #76 9th September 2009, 01:18 PM

Yayayaya! I got an 'A' on my first paper! I was shocked because in class the professor said almost everyone did horrid. So I instantly felt myself getting fearful...lol. I did not want a repeat of last semester where the teacher pretty much defaced everyone's papers and found every possible error (real or perhaps even imagined...lol) and marked it and disregarded entire paragraphs by putting big 'x's over them and accused good papers of plagarism.......I simply didn't want that again LOL. Now this one gives advice and such, but she's not insane w/ it! I actually am seeing what she said so I can fix it next time, But dude, even w/ all that I got an 'A'!!! Yaya!

Lilly of the Valley · #77 15th September 2009, 12:05 PM

the house currently smells like burnt beans...LOL. I had the cooking timed, but the lima beans foamed over and well...made a mess to say the least pluse filled the house w/ some smoke...not a lot, but enough lol. Man! Oh well.....

Lilly of the Valley · #78 25th September 2009, 05:18 PM

Well another wild idea has crossed my mind and I'm going to have to take yet another risk w/ the person. I'm kinda glad w/in myself because I'm actually doing something rather than hoping the other person does all the risks. Anywho.....whew!

Lilly of the Valley · #79 7th October 2009, 08:32 PM

Okay, a lot has happened. Well, to make a semi-long story short, I finally talked to the guy. I mean, I was real (which for me is hard to do w/ folks I have to encounter in person) and open and warm. I thought it was going good and then when the time came (today) I gently closed the conversation so it won't get tedious for both of us. Well, guess what? He bloomin says the most flippant reply EVER!! It wasn't mean, but dude....it was so....blah and anticlimatic. Thinking about it now makes me want to cry. Did I do something wrong? Was I too real? Did I seem to interested in wanted to get to know him as a person? Does he wrongly think I want to pursue something w/ him (which no way on earth do I other than friendship)? What on earth is going on? I just want to erase it from my mind and forget it happened and that he exists.

Lilly of the Valley · #80 2nd November 2009, 09:07 PM

Okay the reply ^ mentioned above wasn't nearly that bad LOL! I think I was just ticked because I read it several times since and it was actually nice. Anyway....some positive stuff has happened w/ that guy

Anyway...the one thing I really want to happen still hasn't. I want to hang out with the dude and get to know him some more. But I'm determined not to ask. He has to...unless of course the Lord says otherwise lol.