Hey gonna try again

Hey decided to end the other thread..

could use some prayer or advice or more like wisdom and knowledge
umm.i have to confess I threw out all my books..everything christian in my house..due to anger..well i regret it..i have a terrible wrath..lol

anyway..i know i need to do somethjing..more so then my pages of posts i posted here..I cant promise anything..God knows i cant..heck ill wake up tomorow and mess up probably in some way..i know i cant promise full commitment right now to Christ..even if i tried..due to alot of you past stuff and the deception of God i went through..

though I cant do much at all towards God..i still need help
lately i am thinking of emotional healing..i sure need this..well you can tell..because im always stressed/worried..full of anxiety..all day..OCd i think and my mind causes that.i try to say calm down.i can.but somehow my mind says its occult and sin to do that..LOL

pretty much anger..anxiety..bitterness

I have been trying to find artivles on web or youtube about testimonies or knowledge in this realm.i am gonna have to buy a new bible..the one i had is in pieces..due to a fury of anger..lol

anyone got wisdom..i cant keep staying stuck..though i know myself is like that right now.but i gotta do something.change attitude beliefs..I hope i can.i know i cant by myself

umm..ya
thanks all for being there..

Hi brother,

You are probably not going to believe me.. but I was thinking the same about the other thread!

Oh how I believe and am straining toward greater things coming ahead for you, me and many others I am praying for.. and I see that closing the thread is a sign to us both and others that this is indeed being fullfilled....

Gives me so much hope!!

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I am listening to andrew wommack..about spiritual authority..I forgot how much authority we have.and how little to non satan has..only what we give him..

we have so much power in the Lord..not are own power..but Gods..but we have such power to change things..just ourselves in the Lord..healing etc

i forgot this..we already have healing..we are already healed.God did it...its not up to God.but us

still have to meditate on it.its hard to wrap my mind around

I have to change my mind..turn a U turn..still trying to or havint the urge to stay in the old ways of thinking of GOd

theres a light..something i never thought would or could be God or godly..I think.man..love is this or that.i never thought of God would be like that.but then i find out its of God..but never thought it could be..all this goodness i think of and love.never thought of could be God..but I speak it.and like i never think it could be God.i wish it to be true..could it be?

i never think it could be.i always havet his thing pushing me to believe what I saw in dreams my old ways..somehow part of me stil beleives..i hope i can see and believe a new way..i hope so

Brother your whole self is changing or appears to me to be.. that is what I get from just seeing the change in how you are writing.. and what you are writing about!!

Praise GOD!! Bless GOD! This gives me an amazing shot of hope..

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Hey peacechild, the last few days i have given up or tried to give more the most i can of some personall issues that haved been really hurting me..i decided to try to give the most i can to God..and I have been speaking the word about those places and how God is good not bad...

I hope things will change now..in honsetly keep me in prayer i know there is a dark place that is still in my heart that will have me go back into darkness..this scares me

I am trying to move forward..though im so scared right now but i am still..i have alot of feaR
i really want peace from my mind and the dreams and visions I keep seeing at night..i want freedom from them still apart of me clings on..cause i wake up..and part of it feels true..yet what it causes me is not good..fear confusion etc..yet i see things that appear giid..and from God..like what is spoken sounds so true..yet what it causes me is not good

they cause me to stay into the dreams..i want the word..not the dreams..i want the old to go..and what i feel in my heart to be true..yet it feels alot of what i see is so true..yet it cant be..it causes me alot of pearl...i want to know im right..that in my heart..this thing i barely see even though the old outweighs it..i want the new thing which i cant see..but know..regardless of feelings or logic or my mind.i want it to be true