In looking back on the problems I've had with anxiety as I reread what I wrote here, I can see that it has basically been due to my negative thoughts, which caused fears, and then that caused me to have anxiety. I can think back on it all and see that growing up, living with my mom and grandparents, having my grandpa around all the time who was always worrying about things started me off in that same way. He always got worried about bad things that could happen and so I have ended up doing the same thing...and when I have then it caused anxiety.
Philippians 4:6 says "Do not be anxious in anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God".
I just need to take everything to the Lord in prayer and allow Him to work everything out in His will and way. If I put my faith and trust in the Lord then I will have no reason to have anxiety no matter what happens. When I do that then I know that no matter what happens it will be alright and God will see me through. I have to allow Him to be my strength when I am weak and bring me peace when I start to feel anxiety.
Really, I can see that through all the anxiety I have dealt with, even at a time it was at it's worst, it has brought me closer to God. It was in those times that I learned to take everything to the Lord and ask for His help...and then I came to see that He is always there when we need Him and that He will help us.
There was a time I was sick and had anxiety and was just scared. I prayed and just basically cried out to God to help me and calm my nerves. I then went and back to bed and I just had this feeling of the Lord being there and I guess I could describe it as like when a little kid would be ill and run up to their parents and sit on their lap and the parent would hold them and comfort them...that's how it felt with God at that moment. I just felt such peace and it was like going to sleep in His arms.

So, I know that the Lord is with me through all of this...and everything in life. I don't really know why I, or anyone, has to go through this, but I know that it has brought me closer to the Lord...probably more so then I would have been if not for this. So, maybe that's the reason for me. I don't know, but I can see now that with God's help I can get through this and if He chooses to deliver me from it then that would be great, but if not then I will just rely on Him and trust in Him.