Hey Dabro...sorry you're suffering like this...and I bet God is sorry too! I really pray that He will help you find a way through this. If you can get professional addiction help that would be great. Sometimes the problem with just going cold turkey and not dealing with why you had to take the drugs means you may turn to other addictions...be that meetings, alcohol, shopping whatever. The trouble is a lot of other addictions are more socially acceptable so go unnoticed and unchecked...if that makes sense. People can be really pleased you're clean not knowing that you may be suffering with the addiction in another area. You prolly know a lot of this already so sorry if it sounds patronising. And please don't let any Christians you may come accross make you feel any worse about your situation than you already do. I used to work in a drug and alcohol rehab and I would think "There but for the grace of God go I". I know what a tough one this is to crack but you sound like you have the determination to go for it coupled with the humility that only God can really help you beat this. What was said about being accountable is good advice too...I'm so pleased you felt you could be honest here! An old cliche which has some truth to it is a problem shared is a problem halved and whilst I wouldn't go that far with the division I do think that owning a problem and being honest about it puts you more firmly on the road to recovery. Hope I haven't said anything out of turn...take care, Rachel
No, your fine Rachel I'm just so consumed with guilt of this promblem. I don't believe anyone has the right to judge anyone except Christ. And If any thing comes across as offensive I just absorb it and move on. My church teaches alot about not judging Ya, I smoke ciggerettes and fall into some temptation does'nt mean I don't know Jesus. But no know one has said anything offensive like that. Thank you Rachel for your kind heart. and understanding that I'm that sensetive. But I used to be that Proud christian who always looked at others and would judge but Pride comes before the fall. and I just try to make it the best I can dealing with this disorder. but it's Okay Really I just need to not over react when it gets bad that is a coping skill I need.
Hi Dabro...wasn't meaning anyone on here...but I know sometimes Christians can be extra serious about certain sins...and yet to my mind someone who is addicted to food and very overweight may have an addiction problem but that might be laughed at where drugs and cigarretes are frowned upon. I don't envy ANYONE giving up smoking cos I can see the attraction in it and how difficult it would be to give up...have had the odd cigar myself...and if you asked most people to give up tea or coffee we'd be really worried! I remember doing some training at the rehab. and they were describing the effects of a certain substance...we had to guess what it was. Heroin maybe? Ors eomthing else really strong? Nope...it was caffeine. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying tea or coffee or food are bad substances any more than I think alcohol is...but lots of these things can become socially acceptable addiction substances. Guess what I'm trying to say is no-one has a right to judge you and it doesn't seem fair that one form of addiction is so frowned upon whilst others may be laughed at. You could be a tea total, caffeine free, absolutely at your correct weight person and still not be a man after God's own heart. Please don't feel guilty if you're seeking to overcome this...I've come to understand that guilt is a poor motivator...unless it leads to swift repentance if it's valid guilt. And also, please don't feel guilty for the pain behind the addiction...that's like telling someone adddicted to morphine that their cancer is something they should feel bad about! Yes sometimes there are things we do which add to our pain but a lot of it can come from others' sin or living in a sinful world. You have a lot of pain and I can undertsnad why if there's nothing being offered to alleviate that pain drugs may seem attractive. You don't need me to tell you it'll make things worse, I'm sure you are aware of that anyway but when you are hurting in the moment, tommorow may seem so far away as to become seemingly irrelevent. I hope you can get some proper help, support and encouragement...you need help not just for the addiction but for why you have it and I pray God provides a healthy alernative to drugs...whether that be a miracle or a gradual process...hope I haven't said anything wrong...take care, Rachel