Despair!

I feel like Satan is attacking my body, or at least my mind. A while ago I made a post about my teeth, which I found out had been rotting on the inside, and I had to have two of them pulled.. I suffered for three weeks with horrible pain from having them pulled.. And now I have some kind of blister on my side that I'm having all kinds of fears about, like if it's from HIV/AIDS or skin cancer. I'm terrified of contracting some horrible disease. I feel like my life consists only of pain. I know God doesn't want me to live in fear but at the same time, this is my body, and I'm also struggling with doubts that God still heals people...or at least that he wants to heal me. I've prayed for healing and believed with all my heart and nothing has happened. It's like God's promises in the Bible don't apply to me. That makes me think God is rejecting me. I picture my body as being full of disease. The thought alone isn't healthy but I can't help it. Sometimes it seems like God doesn't care, like he's standing at a distance and looking the other way while I'm calling out to him in desperation and despair. Lately I've even thought about suicide. Not that I want to do it, but I need an escape from this suffering!! How can I know that God is going to take care of me? Help.

Hi there thank you so much for coming to Healing Ministry.. I have to get my children ready for school soon so at the moment I don't have a lot of time.. but do know this.. You are not alone.. God does care about you and He does want to heal you!

One of his names is Jehova Rapha.. which means I am the LORD that heals! He has never changed.. He is always our healer..

Satan on the other hand as you know from your body turning against you.. does not want us to believe this! He is a liar.. and he inflicts us to take our mind off God.. and think only of the suffering and pain..

I will pray for your healing and continue to pray and encourage you.. but also encourage you to read through this Healing Ministry site.. there is some good stuff here.. Articles to strengthen your faith in God as your healer.. testimonies to encourage you to hope in God and also plenty of good stuff to keep your mind filled with good things..

Here is some scriptures from Gods Word to meditate on.. read these over and over.. think on them.. and His Word which is truth will set you free!

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The verses are really helpful! Thank you!! I will do as you say and browse through the rest of this section.

Today I read my Bible, which is something I should do regularly but don't. I read most of Romans 1-5. There's a lot in there about faith and being right with God, which I think I need even more than the physical healing right now. I do need to keep my focus on Christ and not the storm. And another thing I've caught myself on.. Sometimes I'll say "I believe I'm healed", but a few minutes later I say "I'm getting sicker". I'm waffling, and I know there's a verse somewhere that says you can't expect to receive anything from the Lord if you keep doing that. So, I need to stop doing that.

Thanks again so much.. You have helped me more than you know, and not only with this post. People like you are helping me to keep my focus where it should be.

You have helped me too.. by saying this.. we are all here to help one another.. we are family through Jesus after all.. I too need to keep my focus on Jesus..

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You are not alone in how you feel.
It is hard for me at times to feel like I am healed when I don't feel like it.

Be comforted in knowing that our Father is watching over you and you are so loved by Him.
He is our healer and has already healed you.

Praying for you to receive your healing and to not doubt.

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Alan

My dear sister, attached to fear is a demon. You are a child of God, and you have authority over all things.

I understand how you are feeling, and only by faith can you overcome and conquer through patience and self-control.

You allow the enemy to get into your carnal mind then he will torment and harass you.

You are not dying from some conceivable disease, you are suffering from self-inflicted wounds from the lack of mouth hygiene.

Start gargling your mouth with a mouthwash, such as Listerene, or whatever you have in America.

When we allow doubt and confusion to creep into our spiritual mind, our heart we will then begin to falter.

Double-mindedness can cause a lot of unstability in ones life.

Think hygienic and I believe that your worries will begin to recede away.

There are many Christians out there who suffering more than you are suffering.

Start concentrating of the Fruit of The Spirit, start with patience and self-control.

HIS Will, will be done in your life.

And when those thoughts of suicide comes up, tell Satan and his forces to get in Jesus' Name.

When you feel down, PM me please.

Be blessed in Jesus' Name.

I just want you to know I am standing firm for your healing.. Blessed be the name of the LORD!!

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