Shallowness

This would be something I wrote a couple of days ago.

So I have been thinking lately... I am sick of shallow relationships. I am sick of the relationships in which conversations go like this "Hi, How are you?" "Great" [end conversation] or even the conversations that have more length to it, however are meaningless and stupid in nature.

A lot of what my problem has been the past several weeks is the shallowness of my relationships.. either with A) my roommates,my sorority sisters or B) with anyone else I come in contact with.

I miss this summer when Josh and I would talk for hours about how awesome God is or what He had been teaching us. Or when Erin, my roommate, and I would spend all night in bed talking about the awesome things that God was doing in the kids at camp. Or the edifying conversations I would have with Vinnie about Reformed Church and their belief system and how God's word is vital to life.

I miss those relationships that I had at Teen Mania where I couldn't go a day without SOMEONE asking me how my quiet times were going.

I miss home, where my friends and I would drive up to the youth building at church and spend time praying, holding each other accountable, and enjoying God until the early morning hours. And the random worship sessions we would have.

I even miss last semester when I would hang out with Brian, Ryan, Jason and we would just talk about God.

I realized how shallow relationships amount to nothing... they are utterly pointless and they do nothing but waste time. I want to be edified, I want to be held accountable, I want to be encouraged. I want to encourage, edify and hold other's accountable to. But it is almost as if I have forgotten how to begin that kind of relationship.

The Shallow relationships have drained me, physically, mentally, emotionally... etc. I probably look and act as if I am depressed all the time.. but really.. I am just worn out.. I am tired of trying to find substance in a relationship that contains no substance.

Where do I begin? How do I cultivate those deep, intimate relationships?

sounds like me.. i'm going thru the exact same thing... i tried out many christian clubs to find meaningfurl relationships.. but u would suprised to see how "cold" some christians or so called christians are... and how almost every relationship is aquaintance.. not true bonding friendship.. i'm also very drained... stress from school and stress from these things.. i wish i could have someone to truely talk about these problems with and have someone pray for me... and also to hear what ohters are going thru.. and pray for them... edify each other...

that really fires me up and energizes me... none of these useless stuff about sports/tv/etc