Marie,
Your feelings are intense right now because you are in such pain. Your feelings about no one caring though are wrong, the enemy whispers these things to your spirit to torment, there ARE people who care. Remember, the devil is a liar, the truth is NOT in him.
I have 'lost everything' and let me be a witness to you that Jesus can change things! He can take a completely shattered life and put those shards back together into something more breathtakingly beautiful than you ever dreamed! HE did it for me and the Bible says He is no respecter of persons. So what HE did for me HE is wanting to do for YOU, too! Don't give up Marie!
The thing about real Christians is we get knocked down but we get back up! We KNOW that if the Lord be for you, WHO can be against you? I won't stay depressed now like I used to because I have tested the Lord and HE is GOOD!
PM me anytime. I'll get back with you as soon as I get back online! Be of good courage for mourning may endure for a night, but JOY cometh in the morning! Hang in there kiddo! {{{BIG HUG}}}
~DJ
I need to go to a psychiatrist or something.............*sigh* I can never tell you enough how much your replies mean to me; your advice and encouragement are all absolutely awesome.
I've been depressed for so long, and all of this has been building...now I'm just afraid I'm going to go off and do something stupid. Wow, what I wouldn't give to feel loved, by family, friends. What I wouldn't give to have family, friends. I know God loves me, but right now I just feel no peace. I don't trust myself with myself right now, and it's the scariest thing. I used a plastic knife to make my sandwich for tomorrow....*sigh*
I don't know what to do..........grr.............
Well, I do know one person who tells me that I can call ANYTIME, no matter what, and they will be there for me, but what can ya do when that person doesn't answer the phone? Hmm....I had to go for a walk, just to get away from the house. I am people-deprived, haha.
Dear Marie,
First of all, remember suicide is a permanent solution to a TEMPORARY problem. The problems don't look temporary right now, but believe me things will change.
Have you ever seen the movie, Joshua? Go get it, rent it, borrow it what ever you need to do but WATCH that movie! You remind me of Maggie. (Maggie touched me deeply because I feel just as she did when she smashes the pitcher, my life was a MESS!)
Second, Marie I know you are hurting and I am so sorry. I wish I could do something this instant so I will send you this very big CYBER-HUG!!! I care Marie. You will find so many loving caring people here on this forum. Don't be deceived you are being prayed for and things will change. Don't think prayer matters? Go to my gallery and look up the inspirational piece entitled, "Prayer Warrior: The Dispatcher"
Also Marie, take a look at another piece I did entitled, "Through Whose Eyes". This one is about whose eyes we choose to see ourselves. I always had a bad self-image and one day realized I was listened to the devils image of me. God doesn't have that image of you. HE sees you through the eyes of a Creator that truly LOVES you! HE is waiting for you to turn to Him and surrender. It's the surrender part that isn't so easy sometimes. HE will even help you with that if you let him, but HE is a gentleman and will never, ever force Himself on anyone. He is your adoring Bridegroom, waiting anxiously for your arrival but in the meantime preparing a place that YOU will love. Hoping that you love Him enough to be preparing yourself to be ready for His return.
Hang in there Marie. I'm praying for you!
DJ Sutherlin- (that far-out Christian Artist....)
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