Thanks again guys...I am so down...I have not been aone like this before, I have always had someone. It is so quiet here without my family. I have 6 bedrooms in my house, and they are all empty. I do not even go into most of them now. I stay in the living room or my office. My wife took alot of the stuff, and is coming back each day for more while I am away at work.
I just do not understand why I am still here, my life is not getting better and I am getting even more depressed. I call prayer lines, but they just do not get that I feel without hope.
I have a christian counselor, but he can only see me once a week, and does not help that much.
I wish I was stronger...really, but I want to leave this cruel world as quickly as possible, it holds very little joy and I am not doing well being alone.
It scares me how I feel, because I look around and see ghosts of my family walking in my house. (not real ghosts). I see them everywhere, and remember good times and bad, and cry all over again.
I cannot endure this much longer, if it were not for yo guys I do not know where I would be.
Thanks again guys...I am so down...I have not been aone like this before, I have always had someone. It is so quiet here without my family. I have 6 bedrooms in my house, and they are all empty. I do not even go into most of them now. I stay in the living room or my office. My wife took alot of the stuff, and is coming back each day for more while I am away at work.
I just do not understand why I am still here, my life is not getting better and I am getting even more depressed. I call prayer lines, but they just do not get that I feel without hope.
I have a christian counselor, but he can only see me once a week, and does not help that much.
I wish I was stronger...really, but I want to leave this cruel world as quickly as possible, it holds very little joy and I am not doing well being alone.
It scares me how I feel, because I look around and see ghosts of my family walking in my house. (not real ghosts). I see them everywhere, and remember good times and bad, and cry all over again.
I cannot endure this much longer, if it were not for yo guys I do not know where I would be.
Heaven help me this night.
Troy
I wish I could give you a hug in real life and a shoulder to lean on. Best I can do is give you this cyber Hug and offer up lots of prayers. I know it is so hard to feel up about anything right now. Especially when you have the feelings running through you. It must be so hard to get up and keep going but you can and you will and in time everything will be alright.
Hugs
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I just feel like the pit I am in is too large, I do not mean to belittle everyones great posts, but without love in real life...it is too much. I have not been alone, I married when I just turned 17 and have been with the love of my life every day. I have not had friends, because she was the only friend I ever needed. Now I do not know how to cope with this loss. She was everything to me, and I lost her and my kids. Not sure what else to say besides why am I still here. I cannot be of any help in this state.
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