Healing of my Husband

I tried to move my initial post from Spiritual Warfare, but to no avail. Please read my post. If I may be of any assistance, I would really like to share my story with you in hopes of reaching your Husbands, and your needs if it is possible. I know my healing will only progress as I reach out to others. Christ will lead me to victory. I know it.!

I will pray now for you and family.

Robert

I tried to move my initial post from Spiritual Warfare, but to no avail. Please read my post. If I may be of any assistance, I would really like to share my story with you in hopes of reaching your Husbands, and your needs if it is possible. I know my healing will only progress as I reach out to others. Christ will lead me to victory. I know it.!

I will pray now for you and family.

Robert

For some reason, after many months, my husband's complete healing and restoration has been laid upon my heart. I don't know if it is wishful thinking, some part guilt, or truly the Lord's will. I would like to get a variety of opinions about healing, in general, and in the case of my husband.

Let me tell you the story...

My husband has a drug addiction. He is bipolar. He has had two heart attacks, and last June, he was crushed between a tractor trailer and a van. All of this, (except the drug addiction) has occurred in the last three years. The first heart attack occurred just three months into my committing myself to Christ.

I have learned alot, more than I would have if life had been easy. My faith is strong, and Scripture says that we can do all things in Christ, faith of a mustard see, and much, much more. All from faith.

Yet, I also know that God answers prayer according to His will. I wonder if it is indeed God's will, and you better believe I will be praying on this for a long, long time.

Another thing is the sin in my own life. I still battle anger from time to time, mostly at my husband, and hence the guilt. I, also after a gazillion attempts to quit, I am still smoking cigarettes.

Yet, I have learned to praise the Lord even in the worst of times. I have learned that God ALWAYS provides for EVERY need. I mean, even to the point that my son needed new glasses, God very nearly overnight, provided my son with free ones. I mean literally free. No one gave us money. Sears gave away free glasses in December. I never even heard of such a thing, but here comes my son with an e-mail from one of his teachers and a couple weeks later, my son had a very nice pair of glasses.

I have learned that God doesn't always sit on my shoulder and many times He veils Himself from me kind of like a child trying to learn to ride a bike. He lets go to teach me how to pedal. Yet, He is always there to catch me if I fall and skin my knees.

So much more, about hidden sin, about how to talk to others...He removed life long anxiety, and I am honestly afraid of very little now.

He has placed me so that I lead others. He has given me ministry. He has healed so many hurts of the past that I cannot even begin to explain.

I am humbled by such a God as ours.

The other night, I was praying over my husband, crying, and just very broken over him. I felt so bad that I had at times not acted as a Christian in regards to the pot smoking, and most of all, I felt as if all of his health problems were my fault. Of course, Satan magnified the doubt and confusion in my mind, but the truth is, some of the sin is my sin, and even forgiven sin has a long, long reach.

See, about twelve years ago, we began attending church. Neither one of us made any kind of conversion, but my husband said something about talking to the pastor. I barely even remember the conversation, but I stopped my husband from doing it. We stopped going to church after just three months mostly because I didn't want to go. In those three months, my husband was not smoking pot. He of course immediately resumed it, and nine years later, all these health problems began.

So, after such a long, long OP, could some of you please advise me, tell me your experiences, and help me on my journey in seeking the will of God on this matter.

I KNOW that my God CAN heal my husband. What I don't know is if it is His will. The main healing that needs to occur is on the inside, and I understand that, but WHY is this weighing on my mind now? It feels like a prod from the Holy Spirit, but I must test this because feelings are nothing.

Lisa

Hello ,

God's will is through our Faith in His son Jesus Christ that we will truthfully begin to believe that He truly is God and can do all these miraculous things we have read about in His Word and have also seen for ourselves in our every day lives, and that through our Faith Good things will begin to sprout forth in our lives and in those we come in contact with as well; because all Good things always bring God Glory.

I will uplift you and your husband in my prayers Lisa.

God bless you both

There is LOVE & forgiveness at the feet of Jesus.