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ArohaB · #31 6th February 2007, 05:11 PM

Dontchya just hate it when people lie to themselves??? Its' so frustrating, I guess you know what i means to be falsely accused and then when you still try to remain open they go and lie to themselves about what they've done...
Does it make you feel the same way I do? Frustrated and annoyed? I could say the words you said, "Father forgive them for they know not what they do", but i still feel annoyed...
Maybe Lord you can help me get through this...I've gone to the person as your word says, but whether they'll respond in love or not i dont know?
i'll leave it in your hands.

ArohaB · #32 7th February 2007, 05:20 PM

this feeling of 'should' where does it come from? Lord i'm sure it's not from you cos it makes me feel stuck!
Parents...sure do have alot to answer for!
Help me to be the best parent for my kids Lord
In Jesus name i pray...

And Lord please bring Joe to church again, that was awesome!!!

Love you Lord

ArohaB · #33 7th February 2007, 05:59 PM

What is wrong with some christians????????????????????

ArohaB · #34 11th February 2007, 06:38 PM

Father, that last prayer that i just read was awesome, straight to the point and so childlike and simple..Thankyou for my brother in Christ..

Father you know what i have to pay for and im struggling a little...can i have that last job that i heard about because the hours are awesome..it seems good Lord. Please arrnage the circumstances for me to have that as my job in the meantime Father..and can you please soften Joes heart this week and give him a fresh perspective?
Thankyou my Father. May all of the glory and honor be yours in Jesus name.

I know i come to you for stuff..im trying to just be with you, but these are the things that are concerning me right now Father and i need to tell you about them because i trust you to care for me.

Also i pray for my new friend...i want to be a good servant to you and speak to her about your love. I am sad for her for what she has gone through, but i know you can help her.

ArohaB · #35 13th February 2007, 02:43 AM

We found out Matthew died yesterday afternoon...my husband has been all weird..i know it has hit him hard, but he's on his (dumb) cell phone all the time to i dont know who and it's making me feel insecure, and he's glaring at me like he does when he's fed up with life...I dont like being on the receiving end of his anger it makes me feel so angry right back and i want to be mean to him and say nasty things...all because i dont know who he's txting. I hate feeling this way, i feel like when i have these feelings it reminds me of when he is talking to another woman and not me, and that's what scares me although he has said he has put that aside..but i dont trust him. Cos these feelings still arise...I could think to myself that it is his friend like he said, and also that he is weird cos of matts death, but i dont like being shut out when i've done nothing wrong to deserve it, i hate being the one he takes his feelings out against.
At times like this i feel hate towards him and not love..and i know what the bible says about hate that's why i'm being honest. Hopefully confession does something good, for me who loves the Lord and is called according to his purpose.
Acts 16:31 Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and thou shalt be saved, and thy house!

ArohaB · #36 13th February 2007, 07:24 PM

im still struggling, but i am going to trust you through this time..I am going to believe that you are indeed here with me, and i do notice the small differences in J's behaviour and i am grateful and believe that these small changes have come from your spirit speaking to his heart and him listening.
Please forgive me for reactions that i have had out loud..Im just wanting to be honest Lord and not pretentious.
Thankyou for helping to change Father and i know your way is not my way and i am here by your Grace and for your Glory

ArohaB · #37 16th February 2007, 03:25 AM

my Father, for your love and faithfulness as I come from the trial..In Jesus name.

ArohaB · #38 20th February 2007, 03:45 AM

I realise i'm not that humble...it shows when my ego is bruised..and that is when others are complimented above me...Some of it stems from my mother putting a prize on being complimented and making it completitive...but then some of it stems from my over sensitive nature..either way Lord, it is a stumbling block that i would greatly desire to be removed..only i'm afraid of the pain that is involved when you do removal surgery..it hurts and that's what i'm scared of...
When shadrach, meshach, and abednego were in the fire...they were not harmed or touched by the flames..so why does it hurt to be refined by you?

anyway please remove my sin, in this area. I pray in Jesus name.
Amen.

ArohaB · #39 15th March 2007, 02:22 AM

Lord, my thoughts on my h being paid for stuff with alcohol, bothers me immensly. Can you please intervene Lord? I know you can, but I'm asking you to intervene. He didnt go the other night when invited and that was awesome, he made a great choice...Father, do you want him to be drinking?

ArohaB · #40 18th March 2007, 04:39 AM

why is there stuff that you dont help with?
why do you let us go through things that you could change?
why is there so much pain in this life?
WHY DID YOU PUT ME WITH ALCOHOLICS ALL THE TIME????????????????????????????????????????

What do you want from me?