Need some advice.

I need a little extra help right now. From God or His people.
I have one of those complicated stories that I don't know how to tell. I don't know how - because I have special needs. I could use some extra help from someone to figure out what's going on and how to handle it.
It's also hard to explain what specifically I need help for. My step Dad got involved with the wrong people. I think he's turning out to be more than a witness, but also a criminal. He's helping them mess me up. They are messing me up because I told the police (and will keep telling) that they are involved in a known drug route. They do more than this - they are narcissist criminals through and through and I need to make sure they are caught.
In the meantime while the police gather evidence, they have been tormenting me and trying to make me less believable and have a breakdown. Like it matters - it's already out there. For my health, for my family, and for every other innocent person whom is harmed along the way, this has to stop. There has to be a way to work through this.

prayers ....

hold fast to Jesus and continue to report the abuse to you too.

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Look I just realized that maybe people think I'm trying to cause unneccessary worry which I would not in a million years dream of it. I'm really sorry. But I don't have anywhere to go. I don't know what to do. I'm completely serious. And - I am making sure they get caught here, I think. It's hard to know who's on what side though sometimes.

My step dad started getting into drugs, met the wrong people, they threatened me so I threatened to tell... they tried to mess me up... so I did tell. Now I have to wait for the police to lay charges. I've been going through so much stuff for months - while gathering evidence myself. I'm not even sure it's enough. I know how they launder money. I mean - it's really obvious. I know they hack into "clients" computers so I told the police to try firewalls. That's two things, right? If they can't prove it's drugs they should still have to go to prison right? Cause I can't prove what they've been doing to me very easily but I think I can prove the drugs, and at the very least the above two things. So I told my step dad today what I told the police and I feel worse because they scared me into thinking my step dad already agreed to let them do this stuff to me so in fear I told the police how he still has pills upstairs and he's been giving some to friends and I mean - everyone knows but everyone thinks he's giving left over medication he's been perscribed. But uh, he has a bad ankle and this stuff's way too strong for a bad ankle. No offence.

So I did try to be careful about it though. I'm hoping he will turn out to be an insider for them, and not go to prison. That is not what our family needs right now. First of all - I'm so against crime. But I'm that freak that hollers at everyone to wear safety belts - just in case. I wont let anyone park in handicap places, unless they need to. I'm like so freaking out right now. I don't usually go online. It's not like I can talk to many people either becuase everyone in my family knows these people, and it's just really hard.

I have to wait for the police to finish up and it feels like FOREVER. Everytime they come near me (I have a hard time holding back the truth - it just slips out) so they know that I told and I keep trying to warn them, like come near me or threaten me and that's another charge.. that's threatening a witness. They don't even care. Yeah right - I need help here. I should get a restraining order but I did everything annonymously (like that will even help in the end). I need to know, aside from catching them actually selling the drugs - or transporting as they do. How many witnesses do I need? I have me, my step dad, like 4 other people. I know of 4 people involved in this. I have the computer firewalls and know how they launder for only 2 people. But what else am I neglecting to look for? I can't wait for some big sting you know? besides they know the police are looking for them. I know there's techniques to get them to admit the truth... but.... come on, is this enough?

I think my step dad finally gets some of the stuff they've been doing to me. I think he's trying to figure out whether my life and health is worth more than him getting all egotisitical and thinking he might be a big shot or important to some big criminals who are just idiots and pretending to be criminal masterminds. I mean I can't even get my step dad to stop and realize what it all means. Is their protection worth more than me? What is wrong with him.... Why can't I find the right words to make him see that you just can't do this?
I think I got him where it hurts though. I told him he'll go to prison if he doesn't help teh police. So if he admits to selling some drugs and where he got them and the "rides" he's been along for. I mean - they are nailed... They are..... I just don't know what to do here then. Seriously - help me out God. I don't know if I wanted to find someone who could explain the technicalities to me or I just wanted to say Hey God - still doing your work here. Help me get it together and stay in one piece. I'm sorry. I need Him more than anything. He usually lets me know things will be alright - I'm still waiting. I don't know what that means now....

DCFS....call to get you out of house....

Police.....complaint

Pastor....

Friends.... talk to another parent ....