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  1. lone soldier

    Tough times, depression, hopeless and despair

    I think those things are important. :( A lot of christians I know do too. But I guess it's not for me. I'm not meant to be "happy." :( I do follow Jesus but I don't see why I have to choose between having a good life or having God. I don't see that at all. I'm not worried about going to hell but...
  2. lone soldier

    Tough times, depression, hopeless and despair

    Well thanks. I appreciate your kind words. I do feel like I am a big failure and a mooch though. It's not like I'm a little kid anymore, I should be able to support myself and stand on my own 2 feet. I feel that I should have accomplished so much more than what I have up till now. It's so sad...
  3. lone soldier

    Tough times, depression, hopeless and despair

    It certainly seems like reality. Unfortunately where I live, I don't have a drug plan so going to a psychiatrist to medicate away my unpleasant emotions would not be possible. I cannot possibly afford the costs of those drugs, so help is not available to dull my thoughts of hopelessness.
  4. lone soldier

    Tough times, depression, hopeless and despair

    That's one form of depression, yes. It can also arise out of negative thoughts, which in my case, are rooted in reality. It is completely devastating, in terms of having no value, worth or purpose in my life. I have no reason to even be here. Sucking up oxygen is hardly a reason to be alive. And...
  5. lone soldier

    Tough times, depression, hopeless and despair

    Things have not gotten any better for me at all. I am questioning why I was even born, why did God even bother wasting his time making me? I have no hope for the future, nothing to look forward to and no reason to even be here. I don't honestly know what it is that stops me from putting a gun in...
  6. lone soldier

    Tough times, depression, hopeless and despair

    They haven't been yet... At least, not in a good or amicable way.
  7. lone soldier

    Tough times, depression, hopeless and despair

    I’m not blaming God for my problems anymore, and I posted this in the Depression forum, but it’s not very active over there. I hope to get more answers here, because I certainly need them. I've been very depressed lately. My life is becoming almost unbearable now. I am 29 years old, living at...
  8. lone soldier

    Depressed and life seems hopeless

    You're right. I think it would be a good thing if I got back into volunteering again. I may be an utter failure in my own life, financially, relationship-wise and career wise, but at least I can do something worthwhile with my time and give something back, small though it may be. Sounds like a...
  9. lone soldier

    Depressed and life seems hopeless

    Children are of immense value. A useless adult who is a failure, mooch and not a contributor is a blight on society itself. That's how I feel about myself now. I've always understood the Lord to have not been poor, and he did have a job - first he was a carpenter, then he was an itinerant...
  10. lone soldier

    Depressed and life seems hopeless

    It's 4am here and I've been very depressed lately. My life is becoming almost unbearable now. I am 29 years old, living at home, and I cannot get a job. Anywhere. I have so much debt from my credit card, that I cannot pay it and will probably have to go bankrupt. I went to school but obtained a...
  11. lone soldier

    Ladies...the line starts to the left.

    He is. I am EVERY nerd, cat lover and computer wizard. (No, it's not.) I'm probably far less desirable than Hubba Joe there.
  12. lone soldier

    Missing school...

    A relationship with a woman's not worldly (unless she's not saved). And technically, why does one's job or career have to be worldly either? Can't you find a mission, purpose or calling in your career that is both rewarding and part of your spiritual mission? I think you can. That was always...
  13. lone soldier

    Ladies...the line starts to the left.

    I'm sure there's someone even for this guy. Some of you ladies here are pretty mean. How do you know that's not ME in that picture, huh? :( lol
  14. lone soldier

    Is Buddhism a religion?

    Explain how you disagree. I see little reason to say they are completely at odds with one another, theologically or practically. I see more similarities than differences among the systems.
  15. lone soldier

    Missing school...

    I need to accept that I'll never be an "anything"? That's lame - That flies in the face of everything I stand for, think, believe and feel. Why am I even here then? To suck up oxygen? Never mind, I misread your post as serious. Sorry. I need to relax. :)
  16. lone soldier

    So I guess I'm going to be single for life...

    This is a really good post, BTW. Even if it may be difficult, if not impossible, for me to accept, I appreciate your words. :)
  17. lone soldier

    So I guess I'm going to be single for life...

    Well, I haven't given my age... I'm closer to your age than anyone else's in this topic. I am kind of the opposite of you, too back then. I was always under the impression that I was this great guy; who had all these wonderful qualities and lots to offer. But I've come to understand the folly...
  18. lone soldier

    Is Buddhism a religion?

    This is true. You can absolutely be a Christian and be a Buddhist, since Buddhism is more of a way of doing things and a philosophy than a theology. Buddhism's tenets work quite nicely with the more civil aspects of christianity.
  19. lone soldier

    Will God Provide a Spouse?

    I used to turn to God and the bible for hope about this too. Then I came to realize faith doesn't change anything and that's that.
  20. lone soldier

    Missing school...

    Oh, I don't have to worry about becoming a failure, I've already achieved that! Perhaps for my 30th birthday I should just kill myself? lol (I'm kidding for all those who cannot take a joke) I guess it depends on what you go to school for? What is your degree in? What are your aspirations...