Can you be forgiven? Yes brother you can! Abraham was, Lot was, David was! Perhaps you might find this series helpful:- Backsliding - YouTube
If I can help you further in any way, or you would like to chat, please get in touch.
God bless, :)
Hey Ben,
Just wanted to welcome you as a brother in Christ and also to CF. I guess, like me, you live in the UK? Liked your Blog very much, great idea! Look forward to hearing from you.
God bless,
Brian. :)