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    I'm finally facing it...

    I've found that life is rarely simple. What you did was a choice made with love. It is a sin but it's one that most people and God will understand. If you ask yourself if you truly love Heath and your answer is yes then don't push him away. God is perfect love, and perfect trust. You pray...
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    Anxiety help, please?

    Jess73 please Google and go to PPARX they will match you with a program to help you get your medication. I have anxiety as part of my PTSD and without my medication I'm a nervous wreck. Please continue getting help, there are programs to help as well.
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    Doctor Appointment-First one really since it happened...

    You're doing very well facing what you have. I know it's difficult and I know therapy can be difficult. A therapist will bring up painful things, but as unpleasant as it is they are doing it to help you. It takes time to heal and you're being very brave in opening up and posting your...
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    Moving forward but had a relapse last night...Sigh.....

    It's been said, but I'll say it again. Please see a rape counselor, many of them have been victims themselves and they can help you. I know you might be scared to talk to a stranger but they are experts in helping rape victims. The trauma from rape doesn't just go away and it tends to linger...
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    Opening myself up to him (warning, slightly descriptive)

    I'm glad to see you are open to therapy. RAINN provides free services to rape victims. You can google that for the address so please continue to get help. God Bless, you'll be in my prayers
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    Raped

    If your boyfriend is still suffering such severe effects from the trauma then please get him to see a mental health professional. If he hasn't gotten better on his own after so many years then most likely he'll never get better without professional mental health services. Males often have a...
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    I feel like such a freak. Warning, very disturbing and probably triggers...

    You are not a freak. Victims minds deal with trauma in different ways. You are not the only one with that reaction. It's not unusual for a victim to turn to hypersexuality and Blastophilia (rape fetish) as a coping mechanism. I would highly encourage, even getting down on my knees and begging...
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    Telling my story...

    My cousin, who is like a sister to me, was a rape victim and I was with her though her recovery. Rape can cause real mental harm. Please go see a rape counselor, many of them have been victims themselves and keeping it bottled up is not healthy. Their help let my cousin move on with her life...
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    Hello, I'm new, my story

    I'm sorry you had to experience that. Rape can cause real lasting mental harm. I have a cousin that was raped and it really messed up her life. She didn't want to go out and she would panic if she was in the room with any men other than family. She's like a sister to me and seeing her like...
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    Server Question

    You don't really need a gui on a server it's a waste of memory. With only 256mb of ram you need to look at slimmer distros like puppy or dsl. They'll still do the job but they're optimized to work well on old machines like that.
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    Ubuntu 10.04

    Isn't it great? I've installed Ubuntu on a number of computers in various churches around the area that had a lot of malware on them. A group I'm with does network overhauls for churches and schools. We use Ubuntu as much as possible though what they need to use for legacy software usually...
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    I did something very awful...cannot forgive myself...need prayers. HURTING.

    God loves you and will forgive you when you repent your sins. He has forgiven you so you should forgive yourself and learn from what occurred so in the future when God's hand guides you to someone about to make those same mistakes you can say that you did what they're thinking about and guide...
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    What am I supposed to do?

    God helps those who help themselves. I would suggest visiting a Christian Singles night event. It will help you meet and connect with others who may be in the same boat you are. God Bless
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    New in this room

    Please when you have the impulse to hurt yourself call a hotline and seek out a mental heath professional.
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    I'm in big trouble

    Whenever you have strong impulses please call your doctor or a hotline. If the medication you are on isn't working then the dose may need to be increased or another one can be tried. God loves you, trust in him and keep visiting and talking with that doctor and things will get better. God...
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    18 Year old feeling a little depressed

    Hootja, depression can just happen. It doesn't mean you did anything wrong. There could be a lot of issues beneath it. I suffered from depression as well as other things as part of PTSD please see a mental health professional. I can express how much better my life is after being sent to...
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    Burned myself

    The mental health professional your seeing should have given your their phone number. They are there to help you. If you have thoughts or impulses of injuring yourself please call them immediately. If you can't call them then call a hotline, just get a professional on the line to talk to...
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    Wish I was "normal"

    I didn't feel normal for a long time. The biggest thing that helped me deal with issues stemming from PTSD is being sent to a mental health professional by my psychology professor. I can actual feel normal again and I'm glad I was sent there. God Bless
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    Serious Issue(Please try not to flame me)

    double post, please ignore
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    Serious Issue(Please try not to flame me)

    What your facing is a paraphilia condition known as Raptophilia which is persistent rape fantasies. It's a mental illness and you can get help. I'm working my was to becoming a clinical psychologist and I've done a lot of study in the area because of a friend that confided in me her paraphilia...