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    - Sorry...one more time

    Aye, I'll pray for you as well. I'm kinda at the point of believing that God is using me to show the Christian faith that suicides can go to heaven. I believe that He's gonna work good from both of our experiences.
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    Meeting opposite sex people ...

    No clue here. I met my ex at work, but the people I work with now are old codgers or young married pregnant ladies. Online dating is a bust unless you're a female or a male so attractive that you don't need a website. My therapist recommended going to church to just meet people, but being around...
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    What scars do you still bear from your failed marriage?

    The only "scar" I bear from my marriage is that I still care for her at some level. It's as if there's a part of me that remembers the "for better and for worse...forsaking all others" bit. Even though she's stooped to lying about the reasons for our divorce to garner donations for her medical...
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    In a quandary....

    I figured I wasn't long for this board, but geez... She finally picked up on my distancing and told me she would be leaving me alone. I replied that it was for the best because I was sending mixed signals and crossing lines unknowingly. So it's over, which as relieving as it is....has somehow...
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    In a quandary....

    I do think I saved some face today by creating some distance between us. She got out of the hospital and called me wanting me to come see her. But I took a road trip 2 hours away and told her I was going to let her rest but was glad that she was out. I was also intentionally not trying to...
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    Your Life Summed Up

    Got 9 Bud Lights, 2 bottles of wine and part of a jar of whiskey...
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    Jail/Prison

    I've been booked, but didn't have to spend time in a cell of any kind. I sat in front of the officers' desk, uncuffed, the whole time I waited for them to get to me, then was released ROR. At the trial I got a suspended sentence and the judge sealed the record since I was under 19 when it...
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    In a quandary....

    And the quandary has found me again... The lady and I agreed to stay friends, which is fine with me because I know absolutely no one outside of co-workers so it'll be nice to have other friends to watch football games with and such. Today as I left work I asked if she had plans this weekend...
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    For binge-watchers: what TV shows are on your Netflix queue?

    Right now I'm trying to binge-watch Game of Thrones. I can only make it through two episodes before boredom takes over and I have to do something else. Lotta senseless nudity and sex. I just try to skip over it as best I can.
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    Things you're looking for in a spouse

    I'd want a woman who doesn't think it's weak for her to be a lady or for me to be a gentleman. I'd want a woman who understands the needs of a man and trusts that God empowered her with the gifts to fill those needs. I'd want a woman to be courageous in telling me her needs and trust that He...
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    Starting "treatment"

    My suicide plan is just a backup plan in case my aloneness is incurable. My primary goal is to be someone who can attract a lady and have a meaningful relationship. Suicide is just my backup plan to keep me from wasting resources to prolong agony. Yes, I know that the holy rollers are gonna...
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    In a quandary....

    I had to end it. Granted it was only one date, but I could tell she wanted to take it further than I was able. I had forgotten how much work a relationship is. (which is probably half the reason I'm divorced) And I could tell that even though I was over my ex, I wasn't through rebuilding myself.
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    In a quandary....

    Never thought I'd be in this situation. I met a lady from a website. She lives extremely close by, has developed quite a fondness for me even though we've only been on one date. And while it's nice to kinda see that happen....I can't say that I have much attraction towards her and I'm probably...
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    What's on your mind?

    I've got a date. Like my first date in 8 years. Just had a 3 hour text/phone conversation with a lady and she was complimenting me. Weird.
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    What Youtube channels do you follow?

    Kati Morton SciShow Matt Stonie Those are the only ones I try to keep up with. I also watch some of the Angry Video Game Nerd and a couple of car repair guys.
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    Starting "treatment"

    I think I made a mistake in going to this mental health clinic in town. My appointment was yesterday, that was sooner than I was expecting, then had to take this exhaustive test/survey to give them info on what's going on. I get to the office and had to get weighed....great....and their scale...
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    What's so wrong about wanting to die?

    I do appreciate the replies. My prayer has always been for God to guide me where He wants me to go. And there have been times when I knew He answered. I was offered a job that required me to move in a short time. And things fell into place so smoothly that it had to be from Him. Then later on...
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    What's so wrong about wanting to die?

    When one can objectively determine that he/she is replaceable and that their life is unnecessary, why go through the misery of living? If you feel your faith is sufficient for Christ to save you, aren't you doing yourself a favor by dying? I'm not meaning to sound flippant, but this living is...