Hello all,
I am in late 20, close to 30. I have been a Christian for almost 10 years. I had (and am still having) some upside down but I am hanging on.
Here is my issue even before I was a Christian: I am bored to death. I wish I was dead. Believe me, I am not suicidal, but I can't wait for Jesus to take me. Before becoming a Christian, I had suicidal thoughts but after following Christ I enjoyed life for a moment. I used to believe that the older I will get, the better I will be (i.e: becoming less bored); I used to believe that if I had friends, a job, a husband, activities , I will not be bored anymore, but I know that this is not my solution. I have cried out to God, and I'm tired and bored of mentioning this issue. I have moments where I feel fine, and other moments I wish my life would end.
There are nights that I am so bored that I am crying, it's a big issue for me, bigger than getting married since I don't even see the point since I will get bored again. Please, I need advice and guidance. I had mentioned the issue to some church leaders across the world but they don't understand what I mean especially that I am energetic and bubly person and full of life.
To cope with my boredom, I tried exercising, reading spiritual books, meeting a therapist, studying (i am passionate about learning and studying, this is one thing that doesn't make me bored but I can't do that all the time), music (i love music and I only listen to Christian music), volunteering, meditating, praying ( again, I get bored while doing the last two and I feel God is bored of me as well).
I did dangerous things last year to help me cope with boredom, and I am lucky to still be Alive and not in jail. My brothers and sisters, please tell me what I should do? I don't want to rob a bank to feel less bored, at least for a moment. I don't want to sin to enjoy life, since that will lead me to death. I want to live a long and fruitful life (i don't want to die before 100 years old), but if it means I must be bored from now until then, I already feel sad for myself.
Please, guide me. Thank you so much and may God bless you!
I am in late 20, close to 30. I have been a Christian for almost 10 years. I had (and am still having) some upside down but I am hanging on.
Here is my issue even before I was a Christian: I am bored to death. I wish I was dead. Believe me, I am not suicidal, but I can't wait for Jesus to take me. Before becoming a Christian, I had suicidal thoughts but after following Christ I enjoyed life for a moment. I used to believe that the older I will get, the better I will be (i.e: becoming less bored); I used to believe that if I had friends, a job, a husband, activities , I will not be bored anymore, but I know that this is not my solution. I have cried out to God, and I'm tired and bored of mentioning this issue. I have moments where I feel fine, and other moments I wish my life would end.
There are nights that I am so bored that I am crying, it's a big issue for me, bigger than getting married since I don't even see the point since I will get bored again. Please, I need advice and guidance. I had mentioned the issue to some church leaders across the world but they don't understand what I mean especially that I am energetic and bubly person and full of life.
To cope with my boredom, I tried exercising, reading spiritual books, meeting a therapist, studying (i am passionate about learning and studying, this is one thing that doesn't make me bored but I can't do that all the time), music (i love music and I only listen to Christian music), volunteering, meditating, praying ( again, I get bored while doing the last two and I feel God is bored of me as well).
I did dangerous things last year to help me cope with boredom, and I am lucky to still be Alive and not in jail. My brothers and sisters, please tell me what I should do? I don't want to rob a bank to feel less bored, at least for a moment. I don't want to sin to enjoy life, since that will lead me to death. I want to live a long and fruitful life (i don't want to die before 100 years old), but if it means I must be bored from now until then, I already feel sad for myself.
Please, guide me. Thank you so much and may God bless you!
