Fire, have you thought about contacting the Bishop on the details, to see if it might be possible? I don't know where you live (and probably wouldn't know the laws there anyway), but I suggested it because I do know one couple who have solved the problem in this way (marriage in a church, but not civilly recorded).
I have thought about doing so. The priest contacted the bishop at one point we were both attending more regularly, and the bishop basically told the priest it was his call.
I suspect the priest is spiritually burnt out. It's just a vibe I got from paying attention to him. He seems to have a perfectionistic tendency. Perhaps in the end it was difficult to sympathize.
It's a shame when state laws concerning such things force people financially to have to arrange their lives in a particular way.
Yes. I think part of the issue is that so much of society has changed in even the past 50-100 years. Expectations are different, the ways people live even are different. Disabled people are not simply happy to be warehoused and forgotten, or to live as beggars, and most people recognize a duty to help people live more fulfilling lives. But we live in a "not quite there yet" place where the consciousness is still lower than it should be.
I'm guessing the civil partnership you did file would not satisfy the priest? I'm not sure what the differences are.
No. He didn't seem to think that meant anything at all, spiritually.
I never expected praise or to be held up as a model Orthodox Christian. I just wanted the chance to go and worship God in only way I knew how to do so, without feeling shunned. And receiving communion wouldn't have been so much of an issue anyways- I developed digestive problems several years ago and I don't eat wheat anyways (it's much wores with casein or milk, even a tiny amount gives me problems). For a while I thought I had celiac sprue but the tests were inconclusive, even if some of the symptoms were there. The Lutheran pastor at the church I go to lets me receive communion just by drinking from the chalice (I don't like most gluten-free wafers, they just don't taste good). I was content with the potential to receive the other mysteries of the Church.
I am still not content in the Lutheran church... it's just too different. I do love the people there, particularly the pastor (who doesn't seem the least bit cynical or burned out). And the preaching is good, but... the worship leaves a lot to be desired. The language used in most of the prayers is just pedestrian and bland (it's an ELCA church), and the lack of prayers for the departed and the saints is something I miss. I also miss walking around during the service and lighting candles and praying. It just feels so passive in comparison to sit in a pew, like its bound to generate anxiety. I like to be able to move about freely.
I really wanted to try to help Mental/Seraphim, just by pointing out the Christian life can be a struggle, and sometimes... a priest is not the best place to go for help. They are only human beings, not gurus.
Years ago I had the same struggle with medications that Mental has- none of them brought real improvement. I had depression too, it's very common with people with high functioning autism. I don't even use medication now days that much, except an occasional sleeping pill. I've found acupuncture helpful some, as well as yoga and getting enough sunlight and vitamin D.
Medication is not a cure-all, and it's easy to fall into despair when you take these things and they do little or nothing. But it's a very normal experience and isn't a reason to give up hope. Sometimes, the wrong combinations can even make things worse. I was starting to become psychotically depressed taking Bupropion (Wellbutrin), until they lowered the dosage - antidepressants can potentially do that. It was like the ruminations in my head had the volume turned up, to the point I could almost hear them.
A good therapist is also something needed. I worked with one woman that brought a lot of relief, finally, after suffering through mediocre therapists off and on for years. She specialized in trauma and PTSD, and had worked mostly with women in the past. We did play therapy that normally only kids do, and we also used an approach called Mindsight, an approach developed by the neuropsychologist Daniel Siegel. She also recommended I read a book by Viktor Frankl called
Man's Quest for Meaning. All those things were very grounding and they helped me realized I was limiting my thinking and emotional regulation by buying into bad message fed to me by parents and the wider culture. She also encouraged me to explore finding purpose and meaning beyond religious orthodoxies, while acknowledging the positive role of spirituality.
I would also second the idea of seeking spiritual healing and prayer, and add the necessity of commitment to living a balanced life with positive influences that bring stability and routine. And forget listening to anybody that demands your trust without earning it.
Faith has to be something you personally lay claim to, no priest can just give it to you without your personal involvement, and no argument for God's existence will make you believe something you don't want to.