OCD conscience

That definitely sounds OCD driven. I've also struggled with this problem - the most harmless of situations had become huge moral dilemmas for me. I was constantly examining things I was doing and feeling guilt over the slightest of things.

It had gotten so bad, I was no longer acting like myself... I think that's when I kinda snapped out of it and realized it is these little quirks that make us who we are, and I don't think God would want us any other way.

To an extent, yes. I'm like you; I don't know what's from God and what's not. For example, I struggle with looking at inappropriate contentography--obviously God doesn't want me to, so there's no confusion there. But I like to write, and some of my antagonists curse. I spoke with a pastor who told me that he thought it was fine to have my characters do it, as long as it wasn't gratuitous or using God's name in vain or saying the F-bomb (after all, even the apostle Peter cursed), but I'm still like, oh...maybe I shouldn't...does God not want me to?

Then, of course, there comes this thought that, ideally, God would want us to be perfect...right? But we can't be. Sooo then I'm left pondering that, lol, because He knows we can never be perfect, so why would He expect us to be? Does He, or is that the OCD?

Anyway. Sorry I can't be more help with this. Just know that people definitely struggle with it. I've spoken to many people with OCD who say they never know what's God speaking to them and what isn't, because their OCD always has them on high-alert, questioning everything, doubting, etc.