Thank you. I tried to post on the other groups but I'm still a newbie, this is what it says... "(You have insufficient privileges to post here.)"
I've found a church that's near my place, I will go there on Sunday.
Are all the answers really in the Bible? Because sometimes you just feel like giving up when you have no idea what's on inside your head (where are all those thoughts coming from, why am I hearing all these wacky things...)
I see. You may have to contribute responses before starting a thread on some (sub-)forums--I don't know for sure.
If you are in the US or English speaking west, there are churches and then there are churches. I have my own bias of course--being persuaded of Protestant and evangelical Reformed doctrine--so there are ecclesiastical groups with which I would have more and less agreement, depending on issue, but in my opinion some churches (whether endemic to their ecclesiastical umbrella or not) no longer believe the gospel or the deity of Christ, or hold moral doctrines incompatible with the teaching of the apostles; others are at root in effect non-Christian offshoots--cults. I say this not to scare you (you may not agree with me on various points of doctrine), but to warn you. Be careful. The tone of your response suggests you are new to Christianity or your experience with varied church groups is limited.
Of course this will take time and energy to sort out even if you have pressing immediate needs which may be addressed sooner.
I'm not sure what you mean by your last paragraph, so I can only respond by guessing at some of your concerns. And so please be patient with the flow of argument.
Jesus is the Messiah (or Christ) who fulfills Old Testament prophecy of the preceding many hundreds of years. He is both God (the Second Person of the Trinity) and man, and there is only one God (Father, Son, and Holy Spirit). He reveals what God is like more than any other revelation (like prophecies and event-pictures). He taught disciples how to live to please God, and prophesied that the Holy Spirit would come (which He did at Pentecost), remind them of what Jesus said and guide them into all truth (John 16). Jesus believed the Old Testament was the word of God and He essentially prophesied a "Jesus canon" (about Him and His disciple/apostles) which in hindsight we call the New Testament (not that this answers all questions about what the New Testament is).
Jesus also told His disciple/apostles to go into all the world and make disciples, teaching them to do what Jesus said. The disciple/apostles eventually died, but generation by generation, disciples of Jesus have taught their disciples to follow Jesus. This is the church (broadly speaking, regardless of groups).
But the church is not merely a human institution. God is really working in and through humans--in every generation. True disciples of Jesus do not follow Jesus by themselves, but God's Holy Spirit works in them to do what God says and to want to do it. After Jesus rose from the dead and then ascended into heaven, God did not leave His disciples alone, but sent His Holy Spirit to be with and in Jesus' disciples and to make them spiritually alive or born again--not that in this life disciples do not sin, but that they are in process of becoming like Jesus.
The Bible is the record of what God the Creator and King has done and what God is like and how God wants humans to live. The Holy Spirit uses the Bible to teach disciples of Jesus about these things. The Bible is the word of God and is centered in Jesus, the Word of God made flesh (John 1:14) who reveals God.
Being a disciple of Jesus is not easy. Part of this is because we are weak and ignorant, but part is because our nature is bent toward not pleasing God but ourselves or Satan. Thus the life of a disciple of Jesus is sometimes likened to warfare. Disciples fight their own evil inclinations and the spiritual evil of fallen angels. But disciples do not fight alone. There is the Holy Spirit in them and there is the church, the group of followers of Jesus who teach and encourage each other in the battle.
Does that help? Or address your concerns? If so, you may want to do a Google search for "The God Who Is There," a series of lectures (or book) by D.A. Carson (to express my bias and recommendation of a beginner's overview!). At least some of the lectures are available on Youtube or Vimeo.
And otherwise I commend to you the whole Bible, the whole counsel of God which is sufficient for Holy-Spirit-enlivened disciples of Jesus to be "equipped for every good work" (2 Timothy 3:17), the "Jesus canon" for every generation in the church.
