I wanted to come on here and post on here, mostly becsuse I feel that even though I have grown up as a Christian in a church I couldn't come to grow closer and believe in Christ in a place I felt as completely wrong, my mind and heart was not in God and couldn't believe in my lord Christ Jesus.
I came and kept turning away and kept looking around to God and outside things becsuse of my feelings and thoughts and couldn't be able to get my things together. I got into trouble trying to cheat my way thru life from some drug addict who promised me games and electronics only to decieved me and caused me great trouble for 8 years and kept living with the curses and problems it caused me becsuse of it. I suffered from anxiety and depression and couldn't get out of it no matter how hard i kept trying to get out of it.
I ended up going to finish school and struggled to do so becsuse of my illness and got into drugs becsuse medication wasn't working and as much as I kept praying to god I wasn't getting the healing I needed until I lost everything and got into trouble trying to find work to move out, but had a completely wrong and negative concepts in my mind that caused me to struggle and fail and got in trouble with the law trying to be completely safe while dealing with issues at home.
Life was hard trying to be able to get out of the house and could never get jobs to come move out and live comfortably the way I wanted to and kept trying to get my masters degrees but couldn't be able to get jobs or make money no matter how hard I kept trying.
Rather, Satan came and attacked me on all fronts using my family and causing trouble for us financially and kept us from finding work and causing trouble in our home which was what caused me to go crazy when I kept praying and nothing was going out the way I wanted it. My life completely fell apart when I lost my car, freedom and couldn't go back to school becsuse nobody would give me a chance and hire me while my dad kept kicking me out of the office becsuse Of the anxiety and depression I kept suffering from which he had no care to help me when I kept asking him to help me.
I kept praying and seeking God to heal me so that I could go and make money and enjoy my life but couldn't get a job no matter how hard I kept trying to get s job. I kept struggling trying to find work and nobody would hire me and couldn't get any help no matter how hard I kept trying.
I kept fasting these legal issues would go away becsuse God knows how hard I kept suffering with all my problems and couldn't get a job no matter how hard I kept trying to leave and get out. I needed help becsuse no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get the help and nobody wanted to give me jobs to make money. I was suffering and struggling.
Satan made my life miserable causing me trouble and my family attacking me when they don't want to understand what I'm going thru. I got into medical school but the law Is giving me trouble because they refuse to understand what I went thru to try to leave home and not get into what I got into becsuse the medication and doctors weren't helping me.
Earlier today I had a dream Jesus came and touched me and grabbed my shoulder and told me that my sins were forgiven and that I was cleaned and healed and delivered from my enemies. Jesus came and said this for when he says I'm set free, I'm free indeed and that God would come and set me free and be my rescue when I kept crying to him go help climb me out and pull me out of the pit of despair I kept desperately trying to climb out of.
So today I'm coming as a non Christian asking God to come and cleanse and set me free and that Jesus words are true that these things go away and that I'm restored and recovered from all that Satan came and took from me and restored all I lost and more in Jesus mighty powerful words and name and claim my blessings back and go into medical and graduate school.
I came and kept turning away and kept looking around to God and outside things becsuse of my feelings and thoughts and couldn't be able to get my things together. I got into trouble trying to cheat my way thru life from some drug addict who promised me games and electronics only to decieved me and caused me great trouble for 8 years and kept living with the curses and problems it caused me becsuse of it. I suffered from anxiety and depression and couldn't get out of it no matter how hard i kept trying to get out of it.
I ended up going to finish school and struggled to do so becsuse of my illness and got into drugs becsuse medication wasn't working and as much as I kept praying to god I wasn't getting the healing I needed until I lost everything and got into trouble trying to find work to move out, but had a completely wrong and negative concepts in my mind that caused me to struggle and fail and got in trouble with the law trying to be completely safe while dealing with issues at home.
Life was hard trying to be able to get out of the house and could never get jobs to come move out and live comfortably the way I wanted to and kept trying to get my masters degrees but couldn't be able to get jobs or make money no matter how hard I kept trying.
Rather, Satan came and attacked me on all fronts using my family and causing trouble for us financially and kept us from finding work and causing trouble in our home which was what caused me to go crazy when I kept praying and nothing was going out the way I wanted it. My life completely fell apart when I lost my car, freedom and couldn't go back to school becsuse nobody would give me a chance and hire me while my dad kept kicking me out of the office becsuse Of the anxiety and depression I kept suffering from which he had no care to help me when I kept asking him to help me.
I kept praying and seeking God to heal me so that I could go and make money and enjoy my life but couldn't get a job no matter how hard I kept trying to get s job. I kept struggling trying to find work and nobody would hire me and couldn't get any help no matter how hard I kept trying.
I kept fasting these legal issues would go away becsuse God knows how hard I kept suffering with all my problems and couldn't get a job no matter how hard I kept trying to leave and get out. I needed help becsuse no matter how hard I tried I couldn't get the help and nobody wanted to give me jobs to make money. I was suffering and struggling.
Satan made my life miserable causing me trouble and my family attacking me when they don't want to understand what I'm going thru. I got into medical school but the law Is giving me trouble because they refuse to understand what I went thru to try to leave home and not get into what I got into becsuse the medication and doctors weren't helping me.
Earlier today I had a dream Jesus came and touched me and grabbed my shoulder and told me that my sins were forgiven and that I was cleaned and healed and delivered from my enemies. Jesus came and said this for when he says I'm set free, I'm free indeed and that God would come and set me free and be my rescue when I kept crying to him go help climb me out and pull me out of the pit of despair I kept desperately trying to climb out of.
So today I'm coming as a non Christian asking God to come and cleanse and set me free and that Jesus words are true that these things go away and that I'm restored and recovered from all that Satan came and took from me and restored all I lost and more in Jesus mighty powerful words and name and claim my blessings back and go into medical and graduate school.
