what are you feeling right now? (23)

grandvizier1006 said:

You're wrong. I thought of hanging myself in my room two weeks ago. It was just a thought and not an attempt, and I went to my friends and cried. They were very helpful, just wanting me to know they did, in fact, care.

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grandvizier1006 said:

Since when was she a feminist? Like, right before the Super Bowl?

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Extraneous said:

Its my observation that if i killed myself today that no one would care. Life would go on without me. Its sad isnt it? I want to be loved and needed, but i am not. Not by this world anyway. In my heart i seek the Lord. I just want to be loved, and to struggle no more. I want to feel loved, and forgiven. I want the Lord to wrap his arms around me and tell me that i am a good servant, although i am not. I am nothing, my soul cries out and God will hear, and he will give me life and love.

I cannot earn anything, and im a beggar. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy, he will never forsake me.

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1. When has hopelessness ever spoken truth?
2. When has terror ever brought salvation?
3. When has despair ever brought light?
4. When does gossip ever edified?
5. When does death praise God?
   
6. When has our guilty consciences accused us justly?
7. When has speculation ever been from God?
8. When has selfishness ever shared anything?
9. When does lust, greed, hate, envy, and fear ever stop burning?
10. When does arrogant tongue take God into account?
11. When has an unfaithful heart ever been without secrecy?
12. When has the lie ever told the truth?

Now the tax collectors and sinners were all gathering around to hear Jesus. But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, “This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.”

Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.



“Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins and loses one. Doesn’t she light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.’ In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”



Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.


“Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.


“When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ So he got up and went to his father.

“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.


“The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’


“But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.


“Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’


“The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’


“‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

Jeshu said:

I don't share that observation either about nobody caring. I would care if I knew that is what you had done. I would care very much and walk around praying for your soul to get rid of the murderer. I have taken a vow to fight suicide for the rest of my life, I hate the wicked who can make such a deed look so very tempting when we are overcome by their lies, which they themselves spin to entice us to murder good life. That is who the wicked are they want us to think that nobody cares, or like in my case, that they would get over it, they were all so busy with their own lives, and who can blame them? Life is for the living not the dead. Depression can be very deadening.


We can be living dead however, stuck, surrounded by our own designed negativity, we come to a dead end. And like you say yourself, such a situation can call us to Christ. I went to Christ, but at first it didn't seem to be working, Jesus was far to busy destroying the lawless ones within me, but as fast as He kills them as fast as others take their place, as was completely saturated with them, to overflowing - satan and all his hordes descended into me - I have many eye witnesses of that fact every time I went psychotic the demons would descend into me. The pit was my reward. I earned them sticking around which such kind. I had secretly entertained many of them for years.

for?

1. When has hopelessness ever spoken truth?
2. When has terror ever brought salvation?
3. When has despair ever brought light?
4. When does gossip ever edified?
5. When does death praise God?
   
6. When has our guilty consciences accused us justly?
7. When has speculation ever been from God?
8. When has selfishness ever shared anything?
9. When does lust, greed, hate, envy, and fear ever stop burning?
10. When does arrogant tongue take God into account?
11. When has an unfaithful heart ever been without secrecy?
12. When has the lie ever told the truth?

and the list goes on!!!

As you can see such life within is all numbered to die within us - time and again they will gnash their teeth - isn't that awesome? To be free from all that in the end?

Lay this word on your heart brother I'm sure it will comfort you.

Luke 15
Now the tax collectors and sinners were all gathering around to hear Jesus. But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, “This man welcomes sinners and eats with them.”

Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.



“Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins and loses one. Doesn’t she light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.’ In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.”



Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.


“Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.


“When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ So he got up and went to his father.

“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.


“The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’


“But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.


“Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’


“The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’


“‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

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Extraneous said:

Isnt that the truth?

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Jeshu said:

True enough brother, thanks for the clarification.

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Extraneous said:

I was feeling poorly, but now i feel good again. I told myself to wait on the Lord. Give him a chance to calm the winds. I feel so very blessed again

I am poor, and so miserable, yet i am so rich and happy! How can i know one without the other? Praise the Lord for showing me his richness. There is spiritual treasure and worldly treasure. Gold will not make my heart sing Gods praise, but his love will. Where will my gold be when the world has forsaken me? When i have ruined everything in life, and the world takes whats left, how will gold warm my heart? It will not, it will instead only mock me. Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. I love Jesus Christ. Thieves cannot steal my treasure, moths cannot eat it, nor can rust diminish it. Praise the Lord.

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blessedbethyname101 said:

I'm doing well after just returning from my small group meeting where we chat about our lives and eat snacks. I really like these meetings. I can talk freely about anything that is on my mind and not be judged. I have problems like everybody else. We try to console and support each other. It is a nice meeting.

This Sunday I start bible study in the morning before church. I have to get up at about 6 am to catch the 7 am bus and meet someone at 8 am. Then we will go together to church at about 9am to study the bible. This is the only time I can go to study the bible. I am going to learn the bible in Japanese. It should be fun. The other person whom I am studying with used to live in a kibbutz for a year and is a devout Christian. After living in Israel for a year, this person became Christian. It should be interesting to learn the bible with this person. I am looking forward to bible study.

I went out yesterday to a hot spring with a church member's family. It was nice and relaxing. I had a good time. I liked soaking in the hot spring water. There also was a sauna but it was too hot for my head. I popped out before I became dizzy.

I've only been going to church for a month and a half since the beginning of this year. It has been good for me spiritually and mentally. I've met some wonderful people and have done many activities with them. I love this church and hope to stay with them indefinitely. It is a small church but growing. 2 years ago it had only 20 members but now has 40 members. At this rate, the church should grow even more each year. I am blessed to have come to this church since I've heard that other nearby bigger churches are not as hospitable. I am hoping to be the church's interpreter and translator. I need to stay the course and offer my talents to the church. I believe, each person has talents to offer to the church. Mine is to use my language abilities to help in some way. God is good to me and blessed me with a good church that has welcomed me. I don't have much in assets or wealth, but I do have talents that God has blessed me with to serve the church. I will do my best to serve and to be a part of this family called church.

I was depressed before I came to church. Now I am happy and vibrant with joy in my heart. God was calling me to return to church. I ignored this call for awhile and took a path of evil until I met Satan and had to turn my life back to Jesus. Sometimes, one knows from hard lessons what is wrong from right. What is right is the truth of life from God. I was baptized many years ago but did not go to church since I was with my family who are not believers. It was a hard life to be without a church. However, it is the past. I rejoice in the Lord again! God was with me all these years. He finally forced me to meet Satan. Satan can be in any form. I met him in person. I was scared to death. I know the gnashing of teeth and the pure form of evil is nothing to be feared with the Lord. I cleaned myself literally and ran back to the Lord. He has welcomed me with open arms. God saved me again and again! I feel at home now with this church. Of course, I cannot wait til I go to heaven. But, for now, I am happy being surrounded by other believers who are like family. I am with God's family now. I am healthy and stable due to my medication and God's blessings. I always will have a thorn in my side but rejoice each day with God in my life. What a difference this year has been! Thank you God for being there for me always!

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chaoticfirefly said:

Ever since she stood in front of a feminist sign at one of her concerts. Or was that Kim? Either way, they all suck.

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blessedbethyname101 said:

I'm doing well after just returning from my small group meeting where we chat about our lives and eat snacks. I really like these meetings. I can talk freely about anything that is on my mind and not be judged. I have problems like everybody else. We try to console and support each other. It is a nice meeting.

This Sunday I start bible study in the morning before church. I have to get up at about 6 am to catch the 7 am bus and meet someone at 8 am. Then we will go together to church at about 9am to study the bible. This is the only time I can go to study the bible. I am going to learn the bible in Japanese. It should be fun. The other person whom I am studying with used to live in a kibbutz for a year and is a devout Christian. After living in Israel for a year, this person became Christian. It should be interesting to learn the bible with this person. I am looking forward to bible study.

I went out yesterday to a hot spring with a church member's family. It was nice and relaxing. I had a good time. I liked soaking in the hot spring water. There also was a sauna but it was too hot for my head. I popped out before I became dizzy.

I've only been going to church for a month and a half since the beginning of this year. It has been good for me spiritually and mentally. I've met some wonderful people and have done many activities with them. I love this church and hope to stay with them indefinitely. It is a small church but growing. 2 years ago it had only 20 members but now has 40 members. At this rate, the church should grow even more each year. I am blessed to have come to this church since I've heard that other nearby bigger churches are not as hospitable. I am hoping to be the church's interpreter and translator. I need to stay the course and offer my talents to the church. I believe, each person has talents to offer to the church. Mine is to use my language abilities to help in some way. God is good to me and blessed me with a good church that has welcomed me. I don't have much in assets or wealth, but I do have talents that God has blessed me with to serve the church. I will do my best to serve and to be a part of this family called church.

I was depressed before I came to church. Now I am happy and vibrant with joy in my heart. God was calling me to return to church. I ignored this call for awhile and took a path of evil until I met Satan and had to turn my life back to Jesus. Sometimes, one knows from hard lessons what is wrong from right. What is right is the truth of life from God. I was baptized many years ago but did not go to church since I was with my family who are not believers. It was a hard life to be without a church. However, it is the past. I rejoice in the Lord again! God was with me all these years. He finally forced me to meet Satan. Satan can be in any form. I met him in person. I was scared to death. I know the gnashing of teeth and the pure form of evil is nothing to be feared with the Lord. I cleaned myself literally and ran back to the Lord. He has welcomed me with open arms. God saved me again and again! I feel at home now with this church. Of course, I cannot wait til I go to heaven. But, for now, I am happy being surrounded by other believers who are like family. I am with God's family now. I am healthy and stable due to my medication and God's blessings. I always will have a thorn in my side but rejoice each day with God in my life. What a difference this year has been! Thank you God for being there for me always!

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Jeshu said:

Not feeling very good at the moment. It isn't even 1 am yet and I'm up and about already. I woke up just after 12 with a splitting head ache, I must have laid wrong or something. A pain, lets hope I will be able to get back to sleep later on.

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Press On said:

The wife was watching the game. I wasn't too interested but watched most of the half time show. Then
I just shook my head and went to bed. I think the late Tiny Tim would have been a better half time act. Less production costs, too. For my taste it was way too busy....too much going on. Watching booty shaking ain't my thing, anyway.

This is mostly sarcasm. I do appreciate the hard work and planning that went into it. Many people enjoyed it. GaGa was a class act for a change.

I was just literally saddened at the decadence which has become so normal and acceptable in the U.S.

I remember in the 60s when Beatle John Lennon told interviewer Maureen Cleeve that the Beatles were more popular than Jesus. This set off a huge firestorm of condemnation and Beatle record burning especially in the Southern U.S.

John later apologized in his usual way of apologizing by not apologizing. But even as a Beatle worshipping kid I thought: "You know, what he said was exactly right." People just didn't like being confronted with an obvious truth.

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