what are you feeling right now? (23)

grandvizier1006 said:

I'm feeling depressed again. I feel like the time I have with my friends is so short, and they're usually too busy for me. I'm worried that when they all graduate and head off to California or Japan or God knows where, I'll be left at home, all alone. Where am I supposed to go and live? I don't know yet. Emailing them a million times a day just won't be satisfying. I don't want to be alone in the future.

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That's part of how things are, unfortunately. You'll gradually meet different people, more than likely in the work place and other places.

grandvizier1006 said:

Yeah, but it's just so depressing to think that God could be my only friend.

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GV.......It may not seem too rosy at times, but you still have a LOT of good to experience ahead with some of the bad.

I mean this with the greatest respect when I say that you are still young. Being not yet able to yet establish your career of choice, not really knowing what to do and how to do it, raging hormones, not yet experiencing the super feeling of: "Hey! See what I can do! I'm beginning to realize my dreams! They're tangible! I can touch and experience them!"

Extraneous has it right. Some of the biggest gifts and blessings often come disguised in the rattiest gift wrap and the dingiest plain brown paper (from our human perspective).

Remember when this old guy told you in a PM some time back that you have so much MORE of a sense of who you want to be, selflessness and awareness of others than I had at your age? I meant it.

I was 29 (not 24-that was a typo) before I felt I was FINALLY close to where I wanted to be in life. And after that a mix of good and bad times such as we all have. I both lost and gained ground.

Please give yourself some credit, friend; you deserve it. If God be for us, then who can be against us? You WILL find your purpose and when you do you will be unstoppable as long as you are in God's will. He will give you all the tools and opportunities you need. Stay close to Him as you are doing.

Sorry, this is longer than I planned. A rah-rah speech it was not meant to be. This is very heart-felt from me to you, brother!

Now, I'm going to finish my glass of wine, bang on my drums a while, and hit the pillow praising our Savior!

I didn't know what i wanted in life till i was 40. Before that i was too busy wasting my life on drugs.

RuthD said:

I'm sorry you feel sad. We all sin as humans, it is very human. It's certainly not your fault that it happens. What lies are ruling?

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I know that we all sin Ruth, some with more zest than others, but we all fall short of the glory of God. Which in effect means we all kill God's goodness all the time for we keep oppressing, imprisoning, perverting and killing life on this planet. When I ponder on that then I feel really sad indeed.

You ask what lies are ruling? Oh Ruth so many lies are ruling at the moment, the biggest one being that consumerism is more important than the welfare of people. Or that our socio-economic system is somehow blessed by God instead of cursed.

In this world lies are in control everywhere you look and I'm not just talking about the countless advertisements being thrown our way or other methods to enhance consumerism, the beast of the earth is in full swing that's for sure, we have everything numbered, including people, and no one says a word about it though the bible warns about this time in detail.

What makes me so sad is that God is ignored while He is the One who has made everything good in the first place, not much left of His goodness however, I can't wait till the forces that destroy this earth are destroyed itself.

The saddest fact is that there is so little faith in Jesus nowadays, without faith in Jesus sin is not atoned for which gives satan more and more ammunition to hurt (usually the innocent) people on this planet.

I hate satan as the prince of this world and can't wait till Jesus is installed as King of kings and Lord of lords for then people will be serving the truth instead of the lie.

The Beast Of The Earth.
The Truth exposes that Capitalism
breeds loveless greed
which devours everything.

The Beast of The Earth
raping and exploiting
God's Good Creation.

Raising arrogant voice
boasting he knows best
and is in full control.

While loveless greed
growing within humanity
brings punishment.

What hope have we got?
numbered to die
a miserable lot!

Press On said:

Jeshu,

Curiousity got the better of me. I had to find out where Albany was. You weren't kidding when you said you were in the Southwest.

My map shows a big green water tank on Melville Dr. Looks like a nice city. Only one problem, though. You guys drive in the wrong side of the road!

I almost emigrated to Brisbane in 1971 but realized I was just a kid with no real skills except being a drummer and I was trying to run away from one of the most painful times of my life.

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Yes beautiful Albany, it is one of the few places in the world which hasn't got hotter yet - we have an excellent climate because we are surrounded by the sea to cool us down. Did you know that the city of Albany - about 40,000 people live in and around here - has not one stop light? We do it with roundabouts here - driving on the left side of the road makes that a very effective way to control traffic.

http://www.amazingalbany.com.au/wp-content/uploads/2014/07/Princess-Roayal-Harbour-Aerial-012.jpg

We live about 20 kilometres out of town in a place called Elleker, a small town West of Albany with only a few hundred people living in it, surrounded by beautiful landscapes, an awesome estuary, and close to some of the nicest beaches in the district. When it comes to visual delights we have plenty of that down here that's for sure.

https://media-cdn.tripadvisor.com/media/photo-s/08/10/59/5e/mutton-bird-beach.jpg
http://www.albany.asn.au/all seasons hotel albany/whale watching albany.jpg
https://www.albanygateway.com.au/content/media/images/national__marine_parks/West_Cape_Howe.JPG


You guys are most welcome to come for a visit and we'll get a 4xwheel drive and show you around the place.

Jeshu said:

Yes beautiful Albany, it is one of the few places in the world which hasn't got hotter yet - we have an excellent climate because we are surrounded by the sea to cool us down. Did you know that the city of Albany - about 40,000 people live in and around here - has not one stop light? We do it with roundabouts here - driving on the left side of the road makes that a very effective way to control traffic.

http://www.amazingalbany.com.au/wp-content/uploads/2014/07/Princess-Roayal-Harbour-Aerial-012.jpg

We live about 20 kilometres out of town in a place called Elleker, a small town West of Albany with only a few hundred people living in it, surrounded by beautiful landscapes, an awesome estuary, and close to some of the nicest beaches in the district. When it comes to visual delights we have plenty of that down here that's for sure.

https://media-cdn.tripadvisor.com/media/photo-s/08/10/59/5e/mutton-bird-beach.jpg
http://www.albany.asn.au/all seasons hotel albany/whale watching albany.jpg
https://www.albanygateway.com.au/content/media/images/national__marine_parks/West_Cape_Howe.JPG


You guys are most welcome to come for a visit and we'll get a 4xwheel drive and show you around the place.

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Very cool info! Thanks! I saw the use of roundabouts in London but never considered how useful they actually were.

Extraneous said:

I didn't know what i wanted in life till i was 40. Before that i was too busy wasting my life on drugs.

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Well, I for one can attest that, for the short amount of time you've been on this forum, you have demonstrated a great deal of thoughtfulness and compassion for others. You are quality.

Press On said:

Wel, I for one can attest that, for the short amount of time you've been on this forum, you have demonstrated a great deal of thoughtfulness and compassion for others. You are quality.

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Thanks brother. The Lord is to be praised if good comes from me.

grandvizier1006 said:

Yeah, but it's just so depressing to think that God could be my only friend.

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Extraneous said:

Maybe its a blessing in disguise. It could be.

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Oh brothers no disguise with God and surely not depressing. Jesus is our biggest friend. To hunger and thirst after others means you haven't been touched by Him yet in this part of your life and are still unfulfilled. I know this might sound harsh but it isn't meant to be. Jesus is The Life, when you are in contact with Him then you are in touch with all friendships that have ever and will ever be. Jesus is the pinnacle of friendship, we stop thirsting when we drink from His waters. You want Him as friend for sure.

The road to Him is to die to your longing, give it all away. It is only hurting you any way. And then humbly ask Jesus for His life back and then wait. It is written that He will come soon, and this is really so, but understand that the wrong in you will fight you tooth and nail to get you back. All that is written need to be followed for you to be able to enter through that narrow gate - you can't take anything along, especially not that one in you that thinks now I will Have everything when satan offers you the kingdom!!!

Understand that the son of lawlessness - who lives/hides/destroys/feasts within you - needs to be revealed before He comes. The son of lawlessness you recognise when you are confronted with (your own) lawless being - I'm free I can do as I like - I will inherit everything in greedy mind (because God loves me so while you are in wrong sin doesn't matter) The lawless one will arrogantly claim the God head and continue in sin - all the way to the end.

Can you see all these things will happen because the wicked live within us and they try EVERYTHING in their power to corrupt our heart and thwart our goal. (I fell for the lawless one, because I didn't know that that is who he was. I was always so arrogant, at Youth studies they called me arrogant Dutchie, because I wouldn't budge when it came to my faith in God, but also because I used to be very arrogant at times and served a massive big I.)

Honestly I warn you when you hear and feel the lawless rise get on your knees and know Christ's appearing will be close. Even if it pulls you into a thousand million parts within yourself having a different opinion - don't heed anything but keep your eyes on Christ and know that your deliverer is very near. A very sweaty time I'm talking about here.

Honest brothers, being with Him is a spiritual journey, it happens within ourself when we follow the truth of the bible, for then we land in His courts and sing the new song in the great Assembly, Holy, holy, holy is our Lord God Almighty. A song that will never die inside a heart that will never die.

It is then that you will receive what you have longed for - His anointing - when God The Father and God the Son in God The Spirit descend into your heart. (I was literally floating in the air from delight, there are no words to describe the Glory of our Lord.) A must see and a must do!

We have to leave our sinful life behind. (time and again)

True we come back down again and merge again with sinful life afterwards but once the holy seed has been sown it begins to conquer our whole world of our inner being. And slowly one by one Jesus begins to take you in all your different selves into His glory while every prophecy in the bible starts to become true right inside of you.

What a friend we have in Jesus is so true, so incredibly true, He is my biggest Mate, to give it more meaning the Australian way, and He has not only taken the destructive power of my sins away but He has taken the thirst after recognition, power, money and other other selfish pursuits away. I know for sure I've met Him and that He is within me, I will never have to doubt that again, no matter what happens.

It is all in the bible, the whole story from A-Z

Take the prophecy of Ezekiel 37 for example;

A resurrection from the dead if ever there was one. And then the uniting of broken Israel, become one in our faith about Him and settled in our respective country in peace and rest. A New Temple, very different than any other, and A prince who is the only one allowed in. (love for God) Why do so few people realise that God's word is a stairway to Heaven?

And what is best brothers, sometimes He takes me to marvel Revelation 1 and 4 at the same time, when Jesus comes to pick me up to worship the Father. Oh brothers the delight of knowing Him, if only people knew how good He is. And Upstairs everybody is your friend!

He even taught me to suffer, and to mourn my own sins as well as those of others instead of judging them. Don't let religion stop you, don't let nothing stop you. Seek His face, I say, honestly brothers seek His face.

I'm a heap of ruins when it comes to my physical reality but I have put my hope in Him, I know from myself I will never make it, I need Jesus to come and get me out of the trouble I constantly seem to get myself in.

(I hope I didn't step on any toes saying all this.)

Peace

Jeshu said:

Oh brothers no disguise with God and surely not depressing. Jesus is our biggest friend. To hunger and thirst after others means you haven't been touched by Him yet in this part of your life and are still unfulfilled. I know this might sound harsh but it isn't meant to be. Jesus is The Life, when you are in contact with Him then you are in touch with all friendships that have ever and will ever be. Jesus is the pinnacle of friendship, we stop thirsting when we drink from His waters. You want Him as friend for sure.

The road to Him is to die to your longing, give it all away. It is only hurting you any way. And then humbly ask Jesus for His life back and then wait. It is written that He will come soon, and this is really so, but understand that the wrong in you will fight you tooth and nail to get you back. All that is written need to be followed for you to be able to enter through that narrow gate - you can't take anything along, especially not that one in you that thinks now I will Have everything when satan offers you the kingdom!!!

Understand that the son of lawlessness - who lives/hides/destroys/feasts within you - needs to be revealed before He comes. The son of lawlessness you recognise when you are confronted with (your own) lawless being - I'm free I can do as I like - I will inherit everything in greedy mind (because God loves me so while you are in wrong sin doesn't matter) The lawless one will arrogantly claim the God head and continue in sin - all the way to the end.

Can you see all these things will happen because the wicked live within us and they try EVERYTHING in their power to corrupt our heart and thwart our goal. (I fell for the lawless one, because I didn't know that that is who he was. I was always so arrogant, at Youth studies they called me arrogant Dutchie, because I wouldn't budge when it came to my faith in God, but also because I used to be very arrogant at times and served a massive big I.)

Honestly I warn you when you hear and feel the lawless rise get on your knees and know Christ's appearing will be close. Even if it pulls you into a thousand million parts within yourself having a different opinion - don't heed anything but keep your eyes on Christ and know that your deliverer is very near. A very sweaty time I'm talking about here.

Honest brothers, being with Him is a spiritual journey, it happens within ourself when we follow the truth of the bible, for then we land in His courts and sing the new song in the great Assembly, Holy, holy, holy is our Lord God Almighty. A song that will never die inside a heart that will never die.

It is then that you will receive what you have longed for - His anointing - when God The Father and God the Son in God The Spirit descend into your heart. (I was literally floating in the air from delight, there are no words to describe the Glory of our Lord.) A must see and a must do!

We have to leave our sinful life behind. (time and again)

True we come back down again and merge again with sinful life afterwards but once the holy seed has been sown it begins to conquer our whole world of our inner being. And slowly one by one Jesus begins to take you in all your different selves into His glory while every prophecy in the bible starts to become true right inside of you.

What a friend we have in Jesus is so true, so incredibly true, He is my biggest Mate, to give it more meaning the Australian way, and He has not only taken the destructive power of my sins away but He has taken the thirst after goodies away. I know for sure I've met Him and that He is within me, I will never have to doubt that again, no matter what happens.

It is all in the bible, the whole story from A-Z

Take the prophecy of Ezekiel 37 for example;

A resurrection from the dead if ever there was one. And then the uniting of broken Israel, become one in our faith about Him and settled in our respective country in peace and rest. A New Temple, very different than any other, and A prince who is the only one allowed in. (love for God) Why do so few people realise that God's word is a stairway to Heaven?

And what is best brothers, sometimes He takes me to marvel Revelation 1 and 4 at the same time, when Jesus comes to pick me up to worship the Father. Oh brothers the delight of knowing Him, if only people knew how good He is. And Upstairs everybody is your friend!

He even taught me to suffer, and to mourn my own sins as well as those of others instead of judging them. Don't let religion stop you, don't let nothing stop you. Seek His face, I say, honestly brothers seek His face.

I'm a heap of ruins when it comes to my physical reality but I have put my hope in Him, I know from myself I will never make it, I need Jesus to come and get me out of the trouble I constantly seem to get myself in.

(I hope I didn't step on any toes saying all this.)

Peace

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Thanks brother.

Extraneous said:

Thanks brother. The Lord is to be praised if good comes from me.

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See what I mean?

Press On said:

Now, I'm going to finish my glass of wine, bang on my drums a while, and hit the pillow praising our Savior!

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I loved that Ron, I really loved your whole reply but especially the above line.

Have a peaceful one brother, I said a prayer for you brother, that Jesus hold you close, very close, in His love forever.

Peace brother.

Extraneous said:

Thanks brother.

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Thank you, the living word brother that is who you want to heed - as you full well know by the looks of it.

Jeshu said:

Thank you, the living word brother that is who you want to heed - as you full well know by the looks of it.

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Amen brother.

Confused.

Extraneous said:

I didn't know what i wanted in life till i was 40. Before that i was too busy wasting my life on drugs.

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Yes, drugs are a total waste of life and will prevent you from growing spiritually. I hope that God is taking you on a journey now!

Victorium said:

Yes, drugs are a total waste of life and will prevent you from growing spiritually. I hope that God is taking you on a journey now!

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I suppose wasting my life was a factor in my spiritual awakening, so its a blessing in that way.

Extraneous said:

I suppose wasting my life was a factor in my spiritual awakening, so its a blessing in that way.

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The Lord turns everything to our benefit isn't it brother, it always amazes me how that goes, Jesus is a true Genius, even His hell is a great invention for it will milk the wicked of everything they have ever stolen from humanity in the past and the wicked will never be able to say that they didn't bring their own doom into being. (out of the Abyss satan got it all Revelation 9 The wicked though they could keep on going forever, like God to be, but that will turn out to be a bit of a disappointment when Jesus divides the sheep from the goats within us, they will be on the receiving end that's for sure.)

chaoticfirefly said:

Confused.

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Care to elaborate? We're here for ya.

I love you guys. I feel good. I know life will try to slap me down sooner or later, but right now i feel good. I feel love inside, and it makes me happy.