what are you feeling right now? (23)

I am feeling tired. I slept too much but after tossing and turning all night. I sure took enough sleep medicines but still I keep waking up all the time after an hour of sleep then after 3 hours, after 4 hours and so on. I don't like this one bit! I may stay up all night tonight to try to get my sleep hours back to "normal" for me.

Tempura said:

On the other hand, she could be encouraged, especially if she's struggling with depression herself. But you know your wife and yourself better, of course.

But about everything else you said: Good to hear, man. Good to hear. I have now been almost a month without depression meds. I managed it. I'm free of them. There might still be some lingering fuzziness in my brain, but I don't mind it at all. No setbacks. I'm very encouraged to start crafting a plan to quit my benzos. I know I need them, but I'm also addicted to them. I have lowered their doses for the past year anyway, so I might be able to pull through. That will be hard for me, but I have faith. If I manage to do it at some point - then I'm free of all the meds.

One thing I noticed after quitting the depression meds - I was very emotional. I cried to almost every song I listened to. I do listen to emotional and "hard" songs quite often, but that was weird. I didn't mind it though, I just love how music has this impact on me. I missed it, I missed feeling like that.

About getting weight - I did too. Probably just some chemicals still all over the place, and my metabolism might be off the tracks. I feel like I don't eat more...but then again, I might. Anyway, I'm sure it'll sort itself out for both of us.

All the best man, God bless.

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Actually, you had a part to play in my decision. I discerned from several of your previous posts that you were having significant success and it gave me the courage to go ahead with my experiment. I felt the Lord was with me but still felt scared spitless since I remember the hell I went through in 1993 when I was in full time ministry taking Elavil. I got really out of control disgusted and angry about depending on meds & I foolishly quit cold turkey. By day 4 I was lying on the floor crying in a fetal position. Of course, the wife was really p....d that I could be so stupid to do such a thing & be in a relatively responsible ministry position. She force fed me my meds like a dog at the vet, right there on the floor. She ratted on me, and rightly so, and I met with one of the leaders and humbly promised not to repeat such a stupid stunt. Fortunately, meds and hours and hours of sleep brought me around fairly quickly. This little episode is one reason I think it best not to tell Judy just yet. It was a very scary experience for her.

Thanks brother for the encouraging words. Blessings!

Press On said:

Actually, you had a part to play in my decision. I discerned from several of your previous posts that you were having significant success and it gave me the courage to go ahead with my experiment.

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Hahaa, great. And if something goes wrong, you can blame me! You have my permission. Nah, I think you'll do alright.

Press On said:

Hi everyone.

As some of you may know, I'm a bit of a health nut and gym rat, but despite that I have gained 7 pounds for no discernible reason. Yeah, this bugs me.

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Muscle weights more than fat, and it could be from that. Some meds lower your metabolism or even makes you feel less hungry so after quitting your meds, you have have increased your food intake without realizing it.

RuthD said:

I live in Northern Ohio and we usually have really bad freezing cold, snowy, blizzardy winters but not this year. It snowed a bit tonight but it already melted because the earth is still warm here. I hope you don't get the blizzard! It's been in the 30s and 40s the past several days. I like it this way but who knows what the rest of the winter has in store for us. Mother nature is being good now but I shouldn't say anything coz things could change any moment. lol

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I live in North Dakota (so I shouldn't constantly complain but it's always so gray and we get a sun for maybe a few hours before it's dark again), our winters are generally the same but I wasn't aware Ohio even got very cold. And the weather patterns here have been odd. We get snow usually sometime in October and winter storms by November but we didn't get snow until maybe Christmas? It was warm-ish before that. We did get the winter storm! Now everything is just frozen and covered in snow. Maybe you guys will get what we had

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psychriatrist

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chaoticfirefly said:

Muscle weights more than fat, and it could be from that. Some meds lower your metabolism or even makes you feel less hungry so after quitting your meds, you have have increased your food intake without realizing it.



I live in North Dakota (so I shouldn't constantly complain but it's always so gray and we get a sun for maybe a few hours before it's dark again), our winters are generally the same but I wasn't aware Ohio even got very cold. And the weather patterns here have been odd. We get snow usually sometime in October and winter storms by November but we didn't get snow until maybe Christmas? It was warm-ish before that. We did get the winter storm! Now everything is just frozen and covered in snow. Maybe you guys will get what we had

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When I first started the gym stuff about two years ago, I lost about 25 quite quickly (I thought I was gonna die, but soon realized I was going at it too hard for a 60 -something guy). Gradually put back on a few but realized it was muscle as you pointed out.

Right now I agree with you it's a metabolizing adjustment thing. Right on.

I'm okay tonight.

Press On said:

When I first started the gym stuff about two years ago, I lost about 25 quite quickly (I thought I was gonna die, but soon realized I was going at it too hard for a 60 -something guy). Gradually put back on a few but realized it was muscle as you pointed out.

Right now I agree with you it's a metabolizing adjustment thing. Right on.

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I started to work out awhile back, and i also ate high protein and carb diets as well. I put on some muscle and was surprised. When i was young i never put on weight, but this time i put it on easily, because my metabolism has changed now that im older. IT has since then turned to fat though because i havent worked out in awhile. Maybe i should get busy again. I wont though, probably. It seems so useless now that im older. Why do i need that much strength? I think its more than i will need.

Stayed home today because I felt too sick to go, rotten nausea I wonder where it comes from?

I need to pick up my meds but I really don't want to go anywhere on my only day off. I recall my mom mentioning that the pharmacy does deliver but I dunno. I still gotta send an email about my vacate but I keep shying away from that.

You live in ND, chaotic? This whole time I just assumed you live in Chicago... I don't even know why. When I think cities, i don't think of North Dakota. I need to travel more...

Anyway, I'm doing ok as well. I was reminded yesterday of how amazing poetry can be. Did you know you can make a moving poem about rhinos, guacamole bowls, and long car trips?

I picked up an undrafted hockey player, who is currently playing in NCAA, North Dakota, in my fantasy hockey league. I have never felt this close to North Dakota. I can almost smell it!

Just wondering where everyone (that used to post at CF) went.

Extraneous said:

I started to work out awhile back, and i also ate high protein and carb diets as well. I put on some muscle and was surprised. When i was young i never put on weight, but this time i put it on easily, because my metabolism has changed now that im older. IT has since then turned to fat though because i havent worked out in awhile. Maybe i should get busy again. I wont though, probably. It seems so useless now that im older. Why do i need that much strength? I think its more than i will need.

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For me, even though I have gained muscle tone and definition commensurate with a man 63 years old (certainly not "ripped" like a 20 something), the real payoff is better functioning "innards" like heart, lungs, ect.

As an example, in 2005 I fell off the trailer of my tanker truck and shattered my hip requiring a partial hip replacement. Since it's a workers comp issue I have the hip X-rayed once a year to make sure the prosthetic femur is still properly affixed. After my last X-ray the first thing mentioned to me was there was significant bone growth and thickness around the prosthesis which made the hip much less likely to dislocate. They said this was directly due to regular exercise and to keep it up.

I have slight hardening of the arteries but that's a gift from Adam and Eve....comes with age. My vital organs are doing as well as they can be for my age. Just wish my brain would quit rotting away .

I believe you would benefit starting slowly with some type of exercise that may suit you. Walking, jogging, biking or some indoor gym stuff. Man, medical bills alone are enough to keep me motivated even when exercising sucks when I don't feel like it.

Anyway, please give it some thought. It can also be a great natural counter measure to depression.

BeepSaidBlue said:

Just wondering where everyone (that used to post at CF) went.

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BeepSaidBlue said:

Just wondering where everyone (that used to post at CF) went.

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What time frame are you thinking of? At least on this forum where I pretty much stay there are folks that have been here a few years. I've been around since 2013 except for a couple of hiatuses in between.

Others post once to get advice and are never heard from again. Then there are a bunch of us here who are pretty tightly knit and have developed relationships.

Not really unusual to go to another forum or site for a change of pace. Some have moved on with their lives and have developed other interests and some are just...well....dead.

I don't attend church and am a little leary of people, especially Christians, because of depression. This forum is a ministry field and also provides hope and inspiration for me. I'll keep company with any of these great people here because they're real.

Sorry for the off-topic. Cheers.

Jeshu said:

Stayed home today because I felt too sick to go, rotten nausea I wonder where it comes from?

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Prayers for you, Gerry.

RuthD said:

I am feeling tired. I slept too much but after tossing and turning all night. I sure took enough sleep medicines but still I keep waking up all the time after an hour of sleep then after 3 hours, after 4 hours and so on. I don't like this one bit! I may stay up all night tonight to try to get my sleep hours back to "normal" for me.

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How's it going today, Ruth?

Press On said:

For me, even though I have gained muscle tone and definition commensurate with a man 63 years old (certainly not "ripped" like a 20 something), the real payoff is better functioning "innards" like heart, lungs, ect.

As an example, in 2005 I fell off the trailer of my tanker truck and shattered my hip requiring a partial hip replacement. Since it's a workers comp issue I have the hip X-rayed once a year to make sure the prosthetic femur is still properly affixed. After my last X-ray the first thing mentioned to me was there was significant bone growth and thickness around the prosthesis which made the hip much less likely to dislocate. They said this was directly due to regular exercise and to keep it up.

I have slight hardening of the arteries but that's a gift from Adam and Eve....comes with age. My vital organs are doing as well as they can be for my age. Just wish my brain would quit rotting away .

I believe you would benefit starting slowly with some type of exercise that may suit you. Walking, jogging, biking or some indoor gym stuff. Man, medical bills alone are enough to keep me motivated even when exercising sucks when I don't feel like it.

Anyway, please give it some thought. It can also be a great natural counter measure to depression.

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You are right, exercise is good for anyone. I agree.

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You are right, exercise is good for anyone. I agree.

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I can't be motivated whatsoever to anything let alone exercise. This is the curse of psych medications it inhabits normal functioning just as much as it calms down an over excited brain. It sucks you empty and leaves you sitting in your chair to unmotivated to even get a drink or go to the toilet. I can't tell you how much this has upset me over the years. I have literally lost my life and have to survive on what has been build by Jesus for nothing can ever take that away.

Even once favourite hobbies, such as hiking, fishing and gardening have completely disappeared, and I have to force myself to do such things and don't enjoy it much while I'm at it.

I had hoped that I could get over this without meds but then this mysterious nausea appeared and has been making life very miserable, so much so that I wasn't able to cope with that as well as increased symptoms. My anti-psychotic take some of the nausea away, but when it is really bad then nothing seems to help apart of weed.

I'm 35 plus kilos over weight, mostly around my waist, where so many of my vital organs are, and could do with a good diet and some exercise, but I have this really strong feeling - who cares if I die young it will be much better then than it is now for I will be with God and have all my good life back - which doesn't help at all getting myself motivated to do something about my health or make any move whatsoever in favour of my flesh - even though I don't have no regard for my wife, kids, grand kids, my family in Holland and other friends and loved ones with this seemingly selfish attitude I haven't been able to shake it - thinking - if they knew how I felt then they wouldn't want to have a long life either. I'm not sure what is right or wrong here - longing for the Lord more than your loved ones is a biblical concept and that is really all I want to do - stop sinning and be 100 percent devoted to Him - for God fully deserve our love and praise. Down here I can't achieve that.

Jeshu said:

I can't be motivated whatsoever to anything let alone exercise. This is the curse of psych medications it inhabits normal functioning just as much as it calms down an over excited brain. It sucks you empty and leaves you sitting in your chair to unmotivated to even get a drink or go to the toilet. I can't tell you how much this has upset me over the years. I have literally lost my life and have to survive on what has been build by Jesus for nothing can ever take that away.

Even once favourite hobbies, such as hiking, fishing and gardening have completely disappeared, and I have to force myself to do such things and don't enjoy it much while I'm at it.

I had hoped that I could get over this without meds but then this mysterious nausea appeared and has been making life very miserable, so much so that I wasn't able to cope with that as well as increased symptoms. My anti-psychotic take some of the nausea away, but when it is really bad then nothing seems to help apart of weed.

I'm 35 plus kilos over weight, mostly around my waist, where so many of my vital organs are, and could do with a good diet and some exercise, but I have this really strong feeling - who cares if I die young it will be much better then than it is now for I will be with God and have all my good life back - which doesn't help at all getting myself motivated to do something about my health or make any move whatsoever in favour of my flesh - even though I don't have no regard for my wife, kids, grand kids, my family in Holland and other friends and loved ones with this seemingly selfish attitude I haven't been able to shake it - thinking - if they knew how I felt then they wouldn't want to have a long life either. I'm not sure what is right or wrong here - longing for the Lord more than your loved ones is a biblical concept and that is really all I want to do - stop sinning and be 100 percent devoted to Him - for God fully deserve our love and praise. Down here I can't achieve that.

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I dont know how it reacts with your prescribed meds, but i dont see anything wrong with smoking weed, besides a few problems it may have. It may not be good for health, im not sure if its worse than other things however. Weed is addictive, and it has its withdraw effects as well, but thats not much different than taking prescribed daily medication anyway.

i can't say that it isnt useful either.

Tempura said:

I picked up an undrafted hockey player, who is currently playing in NCAA, North Dakota, in my fantasy hockey league. I have never felt this close to North Dakota. I can almost smell it!

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Might be the Simplot you smell but good, the better and true Dakota.