All my life I've witnessed spiritual things couldn't keep count if I tried.
I hardly care for them although sometimes they've been informative and helped me understand ALOT about people.
Anyway I've had to go through spiritual attacks don't know why they come for me I've no interest in spiritual dabblings I have god and jesus case closed they can never hurt me they just try to mess with me. I don't indulge anything other than my faith and connection with god and jesus for guidance so it's not like I purposely make myself a target because I have no desire to be a spiritually gifted pro or anything....
I often get small glimpses of anything/ anyone/anytime that I don't even consciously remember I just think that I might recall it when or if I need but my conscious mind is still confused or thankfully unaware lol I don't know if that makes sense.
Anyhow right now I'm just hoping that the right person maybe able to tell me why a spirit of some kind came not long ago watching me in my sleep it was like a grey cloud of smoke not huge not bad not good just observing me, I think the holy spirit let me know I was being watched. My daughter was sleeping in my room too and she woke to it and saw it as well she didn't tell me until almost a month later (this is what scares me, I've a bit of sadness about that because I don't want either of my kids to endure things I've had to make sense of if sense is even possible). When it happened I knew it was observing me deeply and she moved in her sleep it got a fright like it was caught but I thought the surprise was at me so in that very short moment it was distracted from searching me for something??? by her movement, knowing it was sprung it disappeared through the roof like slithery grey smoke. My thoughts immediately turn to spiritually covering my children and they seemed to be fine, content, neither of them stirred, I quickly talk with god ask for their covering and return to sleep forgetting the whole ordeal because it was a typical weird [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] moment among many that idgaf for....
So I thought, until my daughter bought it up during conversation as she tells me she saw a figure at the end of my bed watching me I'm telling her it was probably the towel on the door, she actions the place and way she saw it further so I tell her it would've been the robe on the hook or shadow through the bathroom window of the tree. She is adamant at this point I keep talking her down but once she describes how it slithered through the roof and disappeared I knew what she was talking about. So I asked alright if this thing you think you saw was real what was it doing? she says it was watching you then it looked at me and flew off like this (makes waving motions with her arms) through the roof. She wasn't scared, she said it wasn't bad but it wasn't good either she didn't know what it was doing. So if anyone out there might know or understand different spirits, classes of spirits etc and their purposes I'd be interested now to know what it wanted. Or if anyone understands this whole situation it would be good to make some sort of sense of it all. Why me, why has my daughter seen something? what is this thing I've always gone through. My whole life and I still don't understand it's so frustrating all I ever do is pray but sometimes not hearing god be straight and clear with me gets me feeling helpless!! I have no control in anything! I didn't ask for anything! I'm angry about it always have been. I managed to block it out well but as I get older it gets stronger how can I keep it down or close it off? Should I begin to explore it? will that bring me conscious peace? how do I even do that?.... There's too much and then all the concerns about my daughter now being involved I swear I wouldn't even be looking for answers right now if she hadn't seen anything I hate this..... Actually I do find peace in the lord if I seek it hard enough I guess I'm hoping for an easier way
I hardly care for them although sometimes they've been informative and helped me understand ALOT about people.
Anyway I've had to go through spiritual attacks don't know why they come for me I've no interest in spiritual dabblings I have god and jesus case closed they can never hurt me they just try to mess with me. I don't indulge anything other than my faith and connection with god and jesus for guidance so it's not like I purposely make myself a target because I have no desire to be a spiritually gifted pro or anything....
I often get small glimpses of anything/ anyone/anytime that I don't even consciously remember I just think that I might recall it when or if I need but my conscious mind is still confused or thankfully unaware lol I don't know if that makes sense.
Anyhow right now I'm just hoping that the right person maybe able to tell me why a spirit of some kind came not long ago watching me in my sleep it was like a grey cloud of smoke not huge not bad not good just observing me, I think the holy spirit let me know I was being watched. My daughter was sleeping in my room too and she woke to it and saw it as well she didn't tell me until almost a month later (this is what scares me, I've a bit of sadness about that because I don't want either of my kids to endure things I've had to make sense of if sense is even possible). When it happened I knew it was observing me deeply and she moved in her sleep it got a fright like it was caught but I thought the surprise was at me so in that very short moment it was distracted from searching me for something??? by her movement, knowing it was sprung it disappeared through the roof like slithery grey smoke. My thoughts immediately turn to spiritually covering my children and they seemed to be fine, content, neither of them stirred, I quickly talk with god ask for their covering and return to sleep forgetting the whole ordeal because it was a typical weird [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] moment among many that idgaf for....
So I thought, until my daughter bought it up during conversation as she tells me she saw a figure at the end of my bed watching me I'm telling her it was probably the towel on the door, she actions the place and way she saw it further so I tell her it would've been the robe on the hook or shadow through the bathroom window of the tree. She is adamant at this point I keep talking her down but once she describes how it slithered through the roof and disappeared I knew what she was talking about. So I asked alright if this thing you think you saw was real what was it doing? she says it was watching you then it looked at me and flew off like this (makes waving motions with her arms) through the roof. She wasn't scared, she said it wasn't bad but it wasn't good either she didn't know what it was doing. So if anyone out there might know or understand different spirits, classes of spirits etc and their purposes I'd be interested now to know what it wanted. Or if anyone understands this whole situation it would be good to make some sort of sense of it all. Why me, why has my daughter seen something? what is this thing I've always gone through. My whole life and I still don't understand it's so frustrating all I ever do is pray but sometimes not hearing god be straight and clear with me gets me feeling helpless!! I have no control in anything! I didn't ask for anything! I'm angry about it always have been. I managed to block it out well but as I get older it gets stronger how can I keep it down or close it off? Should I begin to explore it? will that bring me conscious peace? how do I even do that?.... There's too much and then all the concerns about my daughter now being involved I swear I wouldn't even be looking for answers right now if she hadn't seen anything I hate this..... Actually I do find peace in the lord if I seek it hard enough I guess I'm hoping for an easier way