Thank you I really, really appreciate you and so many others taking the time to reply.
I know that there are no shortage of Chrisitans who've felt the sting of the same "type" of people I have. I'm genuinely baffled as to how you don't hate them. You'd think it would be easy to not hate. Like when people say "hatred is bad" you could just go, "Ohh, right, so I'll stop."
I think it takes work to not hate. And it's something I just can't do on my own. I'm hoping if I embrace God I can find some way of letting it go.
I really liked the quote above about God being the avenger. Maybe that's what happened to me. Christians had no need to take their revenge on me.
I'll try. I wish it were easier. Nothing is easy I guess. But they say God never gives us more than we can handle. At least I think that's a verse somewhere. If it's true, then I'll find a way.
Progar, being human is one of the most difficult tasks in this world and I won't lie to you that I've been there to, lashed out at anyone and everyone, because I was angry at life and everything else. I have battled with rage for quite sometime and it can go to a whole new level, right from saying and believing in taking an innocent life to almost taking the action.
But I won't lie to you when that vengeance is returned with pure humility it only turns into immense remorse and pure bliss that you become so repentant that you almost wish you would be cast out into darkness. I could only feel an unquenchable desire to balance out the math but nothing seemed to really get me there.
Prograr, the Holy Spirit takes all that and turns you into the most blissful person in the world but this time round, you won't be humble but the most humble, pure and warm person on this world. You will find it easier to breath, love, embrace people from all walks of life to taking hours in understanding the WORD OF GOD.
Therefore, what prayer would you like to make before sunset or in the evening?
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