A really strange life story? Much help needed?

Joe Vaghn

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Hi, I do not know where to post this. There's no 'dream' or 'story' related spot I can find anywhere. But if there is a good spot for this kind of post, please let me know and I can fix it. I'm so sorry if this is in the wrong spot. I'm kinda feeling strange right now and need any answers I can possibly get. Thanks so much!! I really hope you understand.

The reason I'm posting this here is because I mention spiritual stuff near the middle and end. And I mention stuff I spiritual feel. And I don't know if I have spiritual gifts or not. So I would like help on that too if you know anything about it. :)

I'm going to go in sections here. First the dream then the story. So please read in order from Dream -> Story. Thanks.

I'll start the dream from here:

I saw a clip of something. It looked like a green colored bird. small but not small. like a parrot (macaw); And was sitting still for a sec, and went flying across
the scene. with little tiny birds behind her. Then I woke up IN DREAM. Other wise called a "False Awakening".

I woke up in a pretty large wood cabin, with many room/stories. I called out too see if anyone was around And no one was home. I then saw my computer and decided
to watch some YouTube to pass the time. While doing so I found a video entitled: (And I'm not exaggerating either!) "The worlds best bird, HELP! ONLY ONE IN EXISTENCE, MUST PROTECT!", something moved me to watch that video. I was shocked, it looked just like the one in the clip I saw at the beginning of the dream ! I then looked into the comments and saw many people saying this is fake
and photoshopped and stuff. Then I found one person in the comments with the username "The Greatest Bird that ever lived".

I checked the channel of that user. And it was blank, nothing. No activity, but when checking the 'about' section on the channel, I found a quite strange paragraph.
It read: "Please, If anyone finds this, I need you to save me! I'm the ONLY bird that can talk in the real world. Please don't let me die! I'm hiding in the
basement of a wood log-cabin which someone will wake up soon in. Please HELP ME!! I KNOW YOU WILL FIND ME!"; I was in AWE! I was thinking: "Oh, man! Am I some hero?!"; I begin panicking because this bird sounded so cool, and I could not live with myself if it died. So I began thinking. And looking for it. I then looked in the
basement of this cabin and found it in steel cage. I found metal cutters and cut the cage, and set it free! It then looked at me with these deep big eyes. I felt
something strange in my happen and almost dropped it. Felt like... Joy, Peace, Well being... I then saw this 'witch' try to take it back and use it for an experiment. I took the bird and ran for the basement bedrooms.

When getting to the basement bedrooms, there were like 16 beds all nicely set up. the witch came and tried to use a Frost Spell on us and missed(thank god); But she then tried the use a 'magic' or for the sake of understanding, it was a glowing frying pan. I I ducked and then knock her out with a dashing blow to the face. She was not killed, just sitting there unconscious while I looked at the bird. It looked at me with deep eyes again, and If felt that feeling stronger this time! It felt like I was given something (Just bare with me).

I then opened my eyes saw a text box appeared saying: (Hello. You will be happy and joyful if you chose to be with this bird of magnificence. I have come to give you the time of you're life. That is if you accept to be with this bird for ever.
And ever, and love each other. You will become and amazing bird that can do things like she can. All you have to do is say yes. Will you?), then a choice dialog came up saying Yes or No. I picked YES because I curious. (In the dream). Then the dream turned into the same kind of scene. from the beginning and I was sitting in the air
still for like 10 seconds.

After the ten seconds I started to turn into a bird! I was brown with colorful rings around my body. The other bird came and we looked at each
other. I felt an unexplainable sense of Joy, Comfort, and Well being in that. We then put our heads together. And we instantly had about a THOUSAND babies flying
away, we joined them in happiness. The dream ended

So what did you think of the dream? I still remember it in vivid detail from about 5 or 6 months ago. Now I'll tell the story. I'm so sorry if this is too long but please hear me out!

So after the dream ended. I woke up feeling like I could not not walk. I woke up dizzy and confused. I then stopped being confused and instantly the thought came to my head "What has happened to me. I feel like I'm on drugs right now!" (I don't do drugs by the way); But I felt so much well being I could not breathe. Like I was covered in some kind of spiritual ocean of peace and comfort.

I felt so powerful after this. Like I was given power, which sounds stupid. and I agree, but it's a feeling that came on me, just thought I'd point that out too.

So... We go back to a few days after the dream. I then was thinking about making a google+ account to see what kind of people I could meet. Because I had no friends at the time. I was so lonely with going every day with no friends. But just as I was done filling the account out. I stopped and thought "Maybe I should not do this..." I then switched tabs to think about it. I thought "Nope" so I went to close the tab. But my arm him the phone on my desk and fell an hit the enter key. The account got created...

And just after that. about a half a month later. I met the BEST person EVER. Then I met some more people. And keep in mind I had friends back in 2nd to 3rd grade. But they never did anything with me. Now these guys. My friends I will never forget. Actually are people that care about me. Like really! Even one of my friends has Tourette's Syndrome and ADHD. And I have Tourette's Syndrome and ADD! My best friends all have a form of autism like me. I mean I fell so at home hanging out with them. It's like I prayer got answered or something. And a lot of them are christian to be honest. Not all of them though.

The only thing is my parents don't know about this yet. And I'm going to tell them very soon. Just worried they will take it the wrong way. Maybe all they need is too get to know them. But still ya never know.

Now about the spiritual stuff. I know things. without researching. (sometimes.); And I seem to know things before I look for them in any 'Holy' Book. weather it be The Bible, The Qur'an, The Torah. I've read a bit of both. But the bible is more interesting to me.

I've heard of spiritual gifts and then I've heard of spiritual powers. What's the difference between them? And also I've heard of some basic gifts like:

Miracles, Knowledge, Teaching, Evangelical, Wisdom, and some others. I don't know them all of the bat. But I'm kinda leaning on Kowledge because literally. I think of something. I look in either book and it's sometimes matches. not perfectly or directly, but the core of the thought will sometimes match what the bible says.

I don't know much about powers... Although I do some people mention psychic people are 'evil' in that they can see the future events and such. I don't know if that's the same as the Gift of Prophecy or what. Please let me know you're opinion ^^. I'm neutral (meaning I don't care about if it's real or not, or a sin or not) with psychics so any advice is good.

Now I've always been an adventure type person. I love exploring, helping others.
I've been playing lots of adventure games and going on walks to new places around my town that not many people go to. And it just feels spiritually and mentally liberating to explore. I love it!

Now for something I'm dying with. About conspiracy stuff and about what I feel is my calling. So I read about stuff like the 'Illuminati' and the NWO and OWG 'New World Order' and 'One World Government' and stuff like that when I think about adventuring and battling the evil in the world and helping people and saving people (well I mean like saving people from a thief or murderer type thing. Or even like distracting a group of terrorists to give hostages time to escape and be free) I feel like it's what I'm meant to do. I love this kind of thing. I dream of exploring and defeating terrorists and helping the people. NOT and I can't stress this enough... NOT for the fame! but for the people. I know that God knows my heart. I'm just trying to explain it the best I possibly can.

Do you think it's a calling? or something else? It really feels like what I'm made to do. does IQ help? I'm slightly above average around 129 points. And I don't want my family or friends to die to some stupid terrorists attacks and if any of the Illuminati or NWO or OWG happens. I want to fight for good I really do.

I also have been wanting to pray a lot lately and have been kinda 'sloth' or lazy about it because I'm not sure what to think right now. I feel this is what I'm supposed to do, then at times I'm like "really?"

So sorry it's long and I apologize for if it's in the wrong section again. Please point to me to a better section if it is. Thanks so much guys it means a whole million worlds to me! ^^
 

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Hi Joe, welcome to the forums.

Every believer has a G_dly spiritual gift (I Cor 12:7) or put another way The Holy Spirit will use us in the manifestation of a spiritual gift(s). They're to benefit the body of Christ. His spiritual gifts are free though there are learning processes - such as the original 12 disciples were with Him while He was on earth. There are several lists of the gifts- Rom 12:6-8, I Cor 12:4-11; 28; Eph 4:11.

Think it would be great for your parents to know about your friends.

You said you've been wanting to pray a lot lately. Encouraging you to be faithful to that prompting. Actually, as believers we're all to pray without ceasing (I Thess 5:17). I wondered how that was possible and someone on the forums helped me to understand what that Scripture means.

About the dream - I believe we're to ask Yahweh for the meaning of dreams and when they're from Him, He has a purpose.
 
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Get to know Jesus' words by reading the gospels, your goal should be to know him, especially at this time.

I do not see your seemingly acquired talents as spiritual gifts due to the confusion they bring. Be careful of dreams as they can be misleading.

Anything you need to hide from your parents cannot be good. Introduce them to your friends so they can get to know them if they wish.

I suggest you apply yourself to learning Christian living basics because taking the gospel of peace and freedom to the world is a difficult task. To do what you feel may be required of you could cost you your life, are you prepared to give it? Think about that carefully. It may sound heroic but it is a thankless task. Very few of our dead are remembered, except by the Lord if we die in faith.
 
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Hello,

I'd also like to stress the importance of prayer as others have. Creating a solid communication between you and God can help you understand what He wants from you and how you can do His work on earth. I just learnt about the manifestations of the Spirit recently too :D

I agree that sometimes i feel 'lazy' or 'sloth'-like when it comes to prayer. But I remember words (not sure from where) that explain that sometimes we experience times of spiritual 'dryness' when we feel distant from God and are not quite sure how to connect with Him. At times like this, I believe we should be as tenacious as ever in seeking God because these are the times when evil can target us with ease.
 
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Hello,

I'd also like to stress the importance of prayer as others have. Creating a solid communication between you and God can help you understand what He wants from you and how you can do His work on earth. I just learnt about the manifestations of the Spirit recently too :D

I agree that sometimes i feel 'lazy' or 'sloth'-like when it comes to prayer. But I remember words (not sure from where) that explain that sometimes we experience times of spiritual 'dryness' when we feel distant from God and are not quite sure how to connect with Him. At times like this, I believe we should be as tenacious as ever in seeking God because these are the times when evil can target us with ease.

oh boy I agree a lot. it's just...I feel like it on days, then don't on others. it's kinda weird. idk if it's truly sloth or not :/ kinda ambiguous.

also what do you think about the idea of the spiritual gift/power thing I mentioned. wait... can you answer something for me real quick? I heard someone tell me that God puts desires in our hearts. is that true? at all?? because.. have you ever heard of psychokinesis? well apparently if I'm happy or really strange feeling. either my phone or some electronic will act up. once my phone was changing the progress of a video on YouTube by itself after I felt weird... does it sound demonic? to you at least?

also about the fighting to protect people. I've been told I have the 'Hero complex'. what that is, is it's a longing to help people. I have it all the time and can't get rid of it. plus the thought of saving a life from someone harming their life just feels mentally/spiritually liberating to me.

anyways thanks for the reply ;) I appreciate it. I need it all. all the help I can get ;)
 
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You're welcome friend :)

Hmmm, psychokinesis is a first. All I know for a fact is that you should ask yourself: can this help others around me and bring people closer to Christ? 1 Corinthians 12:7-12

If you ever have doubts or questions, ask the Lord and He will answer James 1:5 it helps to sometimes take a step back and not be too quick to jump to conclusions. Be patient, always praying, and keep having faith.

On to the God putting desires in our hearts question. Yes He does! 100% can tell you without a doubt He does. But don't imagine it like it's being forced on you. If we are following in the footsteps of Christ, what God wants of us is what we begin to desire to do. We begin to want to be loving, to be patient, to show kindness and always be giving.

For me the desires God puts in my heart show me the opportunites to be a better Christian. They are like main quest icons on a map in an RPG ( I'm sorry this was the first example that came to mind). The more I explore and discover myself in Christ, the more 'quests' start to pop up. Just the other day I was thinking about a friend I didn't talk to anymore (we had a falling out), and a small voice in my head encouraged me to talk to this friend and apologize for my behaviour.

Now, the thing is, you can always ignore this voice. Free will is most certainly a thing, but trust me you'll know you've done wrong. And if you do what's right, you'll know it too (and then you get to 'level up' = grow stronger in faith, so to speak). Not that I'm saying Christianity is that simple and there is such a thing as 'leveling up' , just giving an example for you to understand.
 
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you are so helpful!!!

yes I've been feeling I should try and practice psychokinetic stuff, because I have a MAJOR longing too help people say... if a poor family is getting robbed, or if someone is getting mugged on the streets, to take em' out just enough so the people can get away safely. I NEVER want to kill ANYONE - UNLESS they are threatening my life. it's called self defense.

PK can be used for good and for harm too. like causing harm in offense, or protecting in defense. or assiting, or anything you need. but it's not like games. I've had the desire out of the blue to try and learn how to Freeze things with this, and to use Fire, and something called a 'Beam' too. But I'll wait a while longer too see what happens.

even if the mental abilities are not working well with me. I still wanna go out helping people so much!!

I also have had the desire to go out and travel the world looking for crime to help people. But some people would call me a Vigilante and I would get in trouble by the law, so idk on that!

I have had the 'Nice guy' or 'Hero' complex thrown at me a bit too lol, but hey. if it's good, it's good.

anyways thanks bud! I really enjoy all the help!! :D
 
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I'm not helpful, it's the God in all of us that is helpful when we have no words or wisdom to impart.

The hero complex is one thing, but make sure you're doing it for the right reason. All things you do should be done in love, kindness and patience in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord. I honestly don't know whether crime fighting or PK is the way to go about it, I'm not too well-versed in that.

All I am well-versed in is knowing that one must try to discern spirits. Even if the spirit is powerful, make sure it's coming from the right place. Please read 1 John 4 and consider whether what you have confesses Jesus Christ came in the flesh and is God.

As for your hero complex, there are always less dangerous ways to go about saving people, like volunteer work. Also, when you do try to save people, save people in the name of Christ and help them grow closer to him through your actions. Keep in mind you aren't actually saving anyone, God is. You're like the display case that attracts people to a wondrous product. Make sure you're always able to represent the Christ that lives in you to the best of your abilities.

If you've prayed and still feel the way you do about how you're going to represent Christ, then by all means I should not and can not stop you.
 
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