See I think you totally get it. I'm in law school and that is very chaotic at times, then I run a consulting business which involves a lot of inventory, title 1, audits.....then I have a 2 year old in the home........so it's not a bad no peace but it's almost like I get accustomed to just always having more than 3 things on my plate. During vacation holidays it's like I can't remember what I am supposed to do.
It's so hard to do that when you are always taking work home.
To make matters worse I am in NYC so that peaceful time and the quite I don't get it. Once a year I take a trip overseas and to be honest that's like the one time I can feel like I can feel relaxation. When I come back things are better and then start to building up.
I found a trial that goes up to the hills, I took my family on a little walk this mourning and I'm going to the gym after dinner. Maybe that will get me back on balance. The morning walk in the park was very peaceful, we went so high up fort tryon we couldn't hear a sound but the wind. It was very peaceful.
Someone told me I need to stop working at home.
Forgetfulness is, of a course, a common trait of sleep deprivation. Often, I forget important parts of my tasks at work that can only be explained by my lack of sleep, exhaustion during my 4 days on.
I know what you're saying about you and your family are always surrounded by activity. The park sounds great - as much a place to find peace as in church.
People make all sorts of suggestions but I often find that circumstances are presented to me at different times. I cannot suddenly decide I want to do something to change things.
A friend of mine at university was a mature student, a mother, and a wife to her husband. It was a struggle, especially when her husband told her she should stop her studies because she wasn't spending enough time with the family. She divorced him, graduated and became a History teacher.
Jesus is, of course, the only one who can give us a peace which surpasses everything else. It's good that you turn to the Word of God. Church is of course also essential, when we can make it. University made me open my mind and heart and seek Jesus in a number of different churches and I was blessed each time.
Study is chaotic, yes. I know I would find I couldn't stop writing once I got a thread in my head, lol. I had to develop the idea, the line of thought, there and then for my assignment else I knew I would forget it the day after. Often I studied and wrote for hours at a time without break, until 2 and 3 in the morning. I'm sure it's the same for many students.
Although I've not been able to use my History degree professionally since graduating, I volunteered at a local Victorian countryhouse for five years - it's now time to move on. Since 2008, I have been doing historical research into my town's history, using the town archives and local studies library, as well as building up my own library of History books. My long-term goal is to publish on the history of the working-class of Doncaster since about 1790. This wil take anywhere between another 10 to 20 years.
God guided me to university and wants me to use my Degree in different ways. It is God who sustains us all every day. Amen.
