So if i am honest I can acknowledge that Jesus died for my failures/sin. What i do have trouble with is that I'm not good enough for anyone including myself. My Father left when i was a baby i must have been a chore growing up for my mother i make mistakes for my boss my family so all round my life. The bible teaches delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart, but what if you have no desire just a hole then the enemy comes along and tries to fill that hole with desire (or for others any other worldly want). It seems that what ever i try to achieve in its fail even when i try from a Christ perspective. I recognize the symmetry with 'the race' but i need to be able to differentiate between the world and God. I feel that God has directed me to love others not be a doctor or a teacher or even a street sweeper but its hard and can be very lonely because i also want to be loved.
'Do unto others as you would have done to you' and 'Love your neighbor as yourself'
I try these all the time. I want to stop thinking about me (see the irony).
I just want to be good enough...
'Do unto others as you would have done to you' and 'Love your neighbor as yourself'
I try these all the time. I want to stop thinking about me (see the irony).
I just want to be good enough...
God bless you.
