For the past three years I have seen a trend of coincidences that center around a certain person whom I thought God wanted me to witness to and lead to Him. You would not believe the things and synchronicities that have occurred. I suffer OCD and so I became obsessed with the idea of reaching out to said person so I eventually got over it and forgot about it.
But the thing is I am very attracted to this person, so I don't know why God would tell me to witness to someone and be involved with someone who I like so much.
The person works at a local grocery store and that it where I saw them. The night before I prayed asking God to send me someone who needs to hear of Him. We crossed paths and something immediately went off in my head--I was romantically attracted to him. For some reason I thought God wanted me to reach out to him. After that happened whenever I would go to that particular store I would always see him, we would either walk across from each other or be in the same proximity.
So after a while my OCD became even more obsessed and I stopped going to that store. Pretty soon I forgot about it and let it go (it took a while though). Weird strings of coincidences still occurred, though.
And in March of this year I went back to that store for the first time in two years (after the weird stuff started happening) and when I first walked in, I saw the person, right in front of me. He looked right at me. So then after that naturally I felt like maybe God wanted me to still witness to him. Like He was waiting for me to mature and for the person's heart to be ready? I tried to shrug it off and forget about it.
In July I prayed about it one night and had my Bible in front of me. I asked God what He wanted me to do about this, in light of all the weird coincidences. I thought of the words "Luke", "7," and "22". I looked it up in my Bible and was floored. John is the person's name, and I had never memorized this Bible verse so there was no reason why I would intentionally think of it. I was in shock. Was that God?
And then not even a month later seeing the verse I got hired at the same grocery store where he works, out of nowhere. A family member was pushing me to get a job and so they talked to the store manager and told them about me and they said to go online and then give them a call back. A week later they called me and asked me to come in for an interview. I did it and was hired on the spot.
And now that I work there, I still see him a lot. We cross paths. Just a few days ago we almost walked into each other. I haven't talked to him but one morning he asked me how I was doing and that was it. I try to avoid him because I don't know what God's will is.
What is weird is that I have had dreams that he got into a wreck and died. One dream I had, after he died, I was walking around the hospital frantically asking people who knew him if they ever told him about Jesus, and they all said "no". I woke up feeling a sense of urgency. I also had another dream I was visiting him in the hospital, "Room 44". And about two days after that I was playing a game of pretend with my niece and our hotel room was "Room 44". Tell me I'm not going crazy.
I don't know what is going on, if Satan is trying to tempt me, or if God is telling me to witness to this person. I don't even know how I would even go about it. I don't even know if this is God's doing or what. I am thinking about quitting, and I have no problem doing so.
What would you guys do? I know I have OCD, but these things are out of my control. It goes beyond my own thoughts.
But the thing is I am very attracted to this person, so I don't know why God would tell me to witness to someone and be involved with someone who I like so much.
The person works at a local grocery store and that it where I saw them. The night before I prayed asking God to send me someone who needs to hear of Him. We crossed paths and something immediately went off in my head--I was romantically attracted to him. For some reason I thought God wanted me to reach out to him. After that happened whenever I would go to that particular store I would always see him, we would either walk across from each other or be in the same proximity.
So after a while my OCD became even more obsessed and I stopped going to that store. Pretty soon I forgot about it and let it go (it took a while though). Weird strings of coincidences still occurred, though.
And in March of this year I went back to that store for the first time in two years (after the weird stuff started happening) and when I first walked in, I saw the person, right in front of me. He looked right at me. So then after that naturally I felt like maybe God wanted me to still witness to him. Like He was waiting for me to mature and for the person's heart to be ready? I tried to shrug it off and forget about it.
In July I prayed about it one night and had my Bible in front of me. I asked God what He wanted me to do about this, in light of all the weird coincidences. I thought of the words "Luke", "7," and "22". I looked it up in my Bible and was floored. John is the person's name, and I had never memorized this Bible verse so there was no reason why I would intentionally think of it. I was in shock. Was that God?
And then not even a month later seeing the verse I got hired at the same grocery store where he works, out of nowhere. A family member was pushing me to get a job and so they talked to the store manager and told them about me and they said to go online and then give them a call back. A week later they called me and asked me to come in for an interview. I did it and was hired on the spot.
And now that I work there, I still see him a lot. We cross paths. Just a few days ago we almost walked into each other. I haven't talked to him but one morning he asked me how I was doing and that was it. I try to avoid him because I don't know what God's will is.
What is weird is that I have had dreams that he got into a wreck and died. One dream I had, after he died, I was walking around the hospital frantically asking people who knew him if they ever told him about Jesus, and they all said "no". I woke up feeling a sense of urgency. I also had another dream I was visiting him in the hospital, "Room 44". And about two days after that I was playing a game of pretend with my niece and our hotel room was "Room 44". Tell me I'm not going crazy.
I don't know what is going on, if Satan is trying to tempt me, or if God is telling me to witness to this person. I don't even know how I would even go about it. I don't even know if this is God's doing or what. I am thinking about quitting, and I have no problem doing so.
What would you guys do? I know I have OCD, but these things are out of my control. It goes beyond my own thoughts.
