Hello everyone, my names Alejandro. I am on here tonight to ask God for forgiveness and to ask that you may please keep me in Your prayers. I was born into a catholic family, but over the years I have grown further away from my religion. I have always believed in a God and have come to him only in my time of need. Although, now I feel as if I need him more than ever. About a month back I had the impulsive erge to go to a massage parlor. The kind with a happy ending. After it all I had the worst guilt. The money I had spent could have gone to help my mother, take family out to dinner, or anything positive. The worst of it all was the risk I took of catching an STD. It's been about a month now and I have gone through a screening for HIV, which came out negative. Thanks to God! The reason I still worry is because I have develop some early HIV symptoms, such as fatigue, and a rash. The fatigue can be anything, but this rash is unusual to anything I have ever had. From what I have researched I found that you may still test negative early on, due to the fact that the virus has not fully develop in your blood stream. I plan on taking another test in 3 months to see if I'm in the clear. This has been eating away at my mind for a couple days now. This has really given me a crazy new perspective on life. I'm a big believer in "everything happens for a reason" and I can't help but feel that what I'm going through is a result of God wanting to bring me closer to him. My mom has always reiterated to me the importance of prayer and every night has told me to pray even though I would shrug it off. I just really hope God can forgive me. I have been one hell of a case and I'm ready to change. I have promised God to stop smoking pot forever as an exchange for his healing. I'm starting to pray to him in the best way I can. I would love to hear some tips on how to become better at prayer or even a specific prayer I can say for my situation. Thank you to everyone or anyone who took their time to read this. I really appreciate you and may God bless you and your loved ones.
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Prayer is crucial and God has a plan.
I'm pleased that the results have come back as negative.
I hope you seriously consider your actions beforehand again.
Welcome to CF too.
I'm pleased that the results have come back as negative.
I hope you seriously consider your actions beforehand again.
Welcome to CF too.
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Yes I'm very happy to pray for u. Let me ask r u saved? When we repent sincerely God is faithful to forgive us. Have u talked to ur doc about the rash? I know this must b agony to go thru but God is faithful and loves u.
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