Revelation 21:8
8 But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.
I have agoraphobia and really bad social phobia. I'm incredibly fearful, especially of people, which is keeping me from witnessing to others. Am I destined for hell?
There is also this one:
2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
There are other similar verses I've found as well.
I wonder if maybe I'm not saved. Maybe I don't have the Holy Spirit at all. My fear consumes me. I don't have the part about a sound mind either. I've suffered from schizo affective disorder for 17 years since I was 13. If I don't take my medications I'm irrational, impulsive, paranoid, and angry to the point of rage. Or depressed to the point of contemplating suicide. Even when I do take my meds, they often stop working as well and my worst symptoms begin to reappear.
At my best I'm still disabled to the point where I can't work. Mostly because of my severe anxiety issues.
I'm nothing but constantly terrified and out of my mind at least half the time it seems.
I've been told I'm crazy many times. What's worse is that I've been told I'm possessed and not saved by another Christian before as well. That there is no such thing as mental illness. That psychiatry is evil and I need to stay away from it. I'm afraid they are right. I pray all the time about this.
I actually hate the meds because they are hard on my body and make it harder for me to think, learn, and recall. I want to wean my self off of them and just give it up to God. He has taken my depression away before when I've been suicidal and prayed to him for help and he helped me overcome drug abuse problems as well. Maybe with enough faith and prayer and Bible study I could get better. At least to the point of some basic functionality. But at the same time I can remember how cruel I am and how sick I get when I stop them. I don't want to hurt my family, myself, or anybody else.
So what do you all think about these verses and mine and others salvation in relation to them? Will I go to hell because of my fear? I'll admit I'm still a young Christian and haven't read the entire Bible yet so I'm very confused. I don't have a church to go to because I can barely leave the house most of the time.
Also do you think others are right? Is mental illness just a sham? Should I give up my meds, slowly of course, and just trust in Jesus instead relying on psychiatry and psychology to fix me?
Sorry this is long and maybe not as clear as I want it to be. Once I got started typing it kind of poured out. I appreciate all opinions and advice on this. Thanks.
8 But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.
I have agoraphobia and really bad social phobia. I'm incredibly fearful, especially of people, which is keeping me from witnessing to others. Am I destined for hell?
There is also this one:
2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
There are other similar verses I've found as well.
I wonder if maybe I'm not saved. Maybe I don't have the Holy Spirit at all. My fear consumes me. I don't have the part about a sound mind either. I've suffered from schizo affective disorder for 17 years since I was 13. If I don't take my medications I'm irrational, impulsive, paranoid, and angry to the point of rage. Or depressed to the point of contemplating suicide. Even when I do take my meds, they often stop working as well and my worst symptoms begin to reappear.
At my best I'm still disabled to the point where I can't work. Mostly because of my severe anxiety issues.
I'm nothing but constantly terrified and out of my mind at least half the time it seems.
I've been told I'm crazy many times. What's worse is that I've been told I'm possessed and not saved by another Christian before as well. That there is no such thing as mental illness. That psychiatry is evil and I need to stay away from it. I'm afraid they are right. I pray all the time about this.
I actually hate the meds because they are hard on my body and make it harder for me to think, learn, and recall. I want to wean my self off of them and just give it up to God. He has taken my depression away before when I've been suicidal and prayed to him for help and he helped me overcome drug abuse problems as well. Maybe with enough faith and prayer and Bible study I could get better. At least to the point of some basic functionality. But at the same time I can remember how cruel I am and how sick I get when I stop them. I don't want to hurt my family, myself, or anybody else.
So what do you all think about these verses and mine and others salvation in relation to them? Will I go to hell because of my fear? I'll admit I'm still a young Christian and haven't read the entire Bible yet so I'm very confused. I don't have a church to go to because I can barely leave the house most of the time.
Also do you think others are right? Is mental illness just a sham? Should I give up my meds, slowly of course, and just trust in Jesus instead relying on psychiatry and psychology to fix me?
Sorry this is long and maybe not as clear as I want it to be. Once I got started typing it kind of poured out. I appreciate all opinions and advice on this. Thanks.
