- Feb 25, 2006
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I'm just a bit frustrated and annoyed w/ some things going on.
I don't understand life in some senses tho, I do enjoy it as well.
The other day, my dad told me I should stop worrying and caring about my best friend so much. That I should start caring more for myself and my life. He doesn't want me to invest my time in this one friend. I tried helping him out a little while ago by getting him a part time job so he'll be able to make some income and my dad yelled at me for that bc he said I'm taking away from what I could be earning, and giving part of it to him and according to my dad, he doesn't need it bc his full time job pays a lot more so I'm "wasting my time" by helping him out.
My dad's comments made me very very angry. What am I supposed to do? Sit back and let my friends suffer if they're not working right now??? No, I will do what I can to help them even if they're only able to earn a little money right now. Its better then sitting back and watching them.
That's not the only thing bugging me. Last Sun was my b-day and I screwed up everything I think. I had my own plans and I thought this is what was going to go on since I planned it w/ my friend but, that didn't happen and instead, I got myself very drunk bc I was so unhappy, feeling let down, upset and depressed yet, my friend decided to surprise me w/ a surprise b-day party. I felt soooooooo bad bc i feel i hurt his feelings and put all his money and efforts to waste bc I couldn't enjoy the party bc i was too upset and drunk.
But, I appreciate his efforts. I just wish things happened differently bc now after this mess up, I doubt he'll ever want to throw me another b-day or surprise b-day party again.
My mind is all screwed up. I don't know what to think or feel. I just don't know. I can't deal w/ what's going on anymore.
I don't understand life in some senses tho, I do enjoy it as well.
The other day, my dad told me I should stop worrying and caring about my best friend so much. That I should start caring more for myself and my life. He doesn't want me to invest my time in this one friend. I tried helping him out a little while ago by getting him a part time job so he'll be able to make some income and my dad yelled at me for that bc he said I'm taking away from what I could be earning, and giving part of it to him and according to my dad, he doesn't need it bc his full time job pays a lot more so I'm "wasting my time" by helping him out.
My dad's comments made me very very angry. What am I supposed to do? Sit back and let my friends suffer if they're not working right now??? No, I will do what I can to help them even if they're only able to earn a little money right now. Its better then sitting back and watching them.
That's not the only thing bugging me. Last Sun was my b-day and I screwed up everything I think. I had my own plans and I thought this is what was going to go on since I planned it w/ my friend but, that didn't happen and instead, I got myself very drunk bc I was so unhappy, feeling let down, upset and depressed yet, my friend decided to surprise me w/ a surprise b-day party. I felt soooooooo bad bc i feel i hurt his feelings and put all his money and efforts to waste bc I couldn't enjoy the party bc i was too upset and drunk.
But, I appreciate his efforts. I just wish things happened differently bc now after this mess up, I doubt he'll ever want to throw me another b-day or surprise b-day party again.
My mind is all screwed up. I don't know what to think or feel. I just don't know. I can't deal w/ what's going on anymore.
