Hi,
I was clinically diagnosed with Bpd at 18, and haven't really studied the disorder in depth. I'm a relatively new believer,(I was raised in a pentecostal/messianic family and always believed in God, but did not truly accept Him until a few months ago)
Part of my personality/symptoms is obsessions, through passionate devotion to learning all I can about something, or spending all my time devoted to it, until something else catches my interest.
I also have had cycles of more serious depressions, and disassociation ranging over a period of a few months to a couple of years.
I can't help but think of Proverbs 24:21
My son, fear thou the LORD and the king: and meddle not with them that are given to change:
I'm asking for prayer, and advice...
I know that right now my heart is on God, but at times, I start to despair. I also fear that, I would be one to fall away from God, or be mislead into false comfort in sin.
After I get through it, whatever "it" is, I repent of feelings of anger, doubt, among other things. I feel peace, and know He is just and merciful to forgive. He has already made great changes in my life in a short period of time, but this is much harder...
I was clinically diagnosed with Bpd at 18, and haven't really studied the disorder in depth. I'm a relatively new believer,(I was raised in a pentecostal/messianic family and always believed in God, but did not truly accept Him until a few months ago)
Part of my personality/symptoms is obsessions, through passionate devotion to learning all I can about something, or spending all my time devoted to it, until something else catches my interest.
I also have had cycles of more serious depressions, and disassociation ranging over a period of a few months to a couple of years.
I can't help but think of Proverbs 24:21
My son, fear thou the LORD and the king: and meddle not with them that are given to change:
I'm asking for prayer, and advice...
I know that right now my heart is on God, but at times, I start to despair. I also fear that, I would be one to fall away from God, or be mislead into false comfort in sin.
After I get through it, whatever "it" is, I repent of feelings of anger, doubt, among other things. I feel peace, and know He is just and merciful to forgive. He has already made great changes in my life in a short period of time, but this is much harder...
