I have been suffering from mental instability for many years and i dont even know what it feels like to be what people consider as normal. Thats ok though because faith to me is not about this world and what it considers normal. Faith to me is about finding strength in the midst of weakness, not strength. Its about finding Christs righteousness, not my own. Its about finding humility, not pride. I am humbled by my weakness and my hope is the Lord because i cannot hope in myself anymore. I believe in hope no matter what failure we face or what weakness we endure. The Gospel that Christ gave to us is about hope. The bible says that if we put our hope in the Lord then we will not be put to shame, and, that if God is for us then who can be against us? Therefor even though i am so very weak and humbled, i look toward heaven and toward God, not this world. The bible says that we look toward the things in heaven that we do not see, instead of things on earth that we do see, because the things we see now are only temporary but heaven is eternal. I will not even pretend to be strong because even though i sound like i may have it together now, later on i may just fall into pieces.