I'm a 17 year old teen who accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior a month ago..PLEASE, PLEASE read and help me..Sorry that it's long. I also don't know where to put this on the site, I made an account here to look for help. I'm new here.
I went for a walk today and was having doubt about my faith, sadly...
I was thinking of how satan is so bad and tricking people to believe Jesus doesn't exist, and all that. I was forcing myself to have a better belief in Jesus, I was trying to because I felt like I was drifting away.
As I was walking thinking about lots of stuff(I have OCD and anxiety), the thought about what the pharisees said to Jesus in the Bible came in my head, and how they said Jesus gets his power from the devil. I don't truly believe that in my soul. But, at the moment, I thought in my head, "What if they were right?"
I thought the pharisees MIGHT be right about Jesus.
After I noticed that sinful thought, I quickly stopped the thoughts because I knew they were bad.
This is the closest to what I think I thought in my head. I have terrible OCD and worry a lot, I get lots of bad thoughts with my anxiety, and have a hard time with my brain.
AFTER about 10 mins later, realizing what I might have actually thought was unforgivable, I cried, was scared for my life, sorry to Jesus, Our Father, and The Holy Spirit, I prayed and repented of my sins to Jesus many times. I was crying and confused, scared.
I'm scared I committed the unforgivable sin, if I did, I did not truly mean it, but my stupid sinful brain somehow thought bad stuff like that.
I'm scared to why I thought that, i'm scared God might not love me anymore, that I've been denied.
I don't want this, I don't believe Jesus had the work of the devil, I DON'T believe it. I believe he was good! But my brain thought for a second that it might be a possibility, even though my soul knows it's not.
-Did I commit the unforgivable sin by thinking the pharisees were maybe right (for 1 second)?
-Does Jesus know that I am sorry from my soul, even though my brain thought the sinful horrible disgusting thing that my soul and intentions disagrees with?
-Does Jesus know that my mental health makes me think terrible sinful things?
-Will I be forgiven?
-How can I know I am forgiven (If I am) so I don't feel guilty anymore?
I hope Jesus knows i'm sorry and I wasn't thinking right.
Along with my OCD and anxiety, my family and I have experienced demonic spirits in our house in the last months. These demonic spirits always tried to get us away from God.
Have I done the unforgivable sin by thinking like the pharisees (It was once, and only for a second, and I repented and was so incredibly sorry after. Is that enough, or am I doomed)?
Please help me. God bless you for reading, thank you.
I went for a walk today and was having doubt about my faith, sadly...
I was thinking of how satan is so bad and tricking people to believe Jesus doesn't exist, and all that. I was forcing myself to have a better belief in Jesus, I was trying to because I felt like I was drifting away.
As I was walking thinking about lots of stuff(I have OCD and anxiety), the thought about what the pharisees said to Jesus in the Bible came in my head, and how they said Jesus gets his power from the devil. I don't truly believe that in my soul. But, at the moment, I thought in my head, "What if they were right?"
I thought the pharisees MIGHT be right about Jesus.
After I noticed that sinful thought, I quickly stopped the thoughts because I knew they were bad.
This is the closest to what I think I thought in my head. I have terrible OCD and worry a lot, I get lots of bad thoughts with my anxiety, and have a hard time with my brain.
AFTER about 10 mins later, realizing what I might have actually thought was unforgivable, I cried, was scared for my life, sorry to Jesus, Our Father, and The Holy Spirit, I prayed and repented of my sins to Jesus many times. I was crying and confused, scared.
I'm scared I committed the unforgivable sin, if I did, I did not truly mean it, but my stupid sinful brain somehow thought bad stuff like that.
I'm scared to why I thought that, i'm scared God might not love me anymore, that I've been denied.
I don't want this, I don't believe Jesus had the work of the devil, I DON'T believe it. I believe he was good! But my brain thought for a second that it might be a possibility, even though my soul knows it's not.
-Did I commit the unforgivable sin by thinking the pharisees were maybe right (for 1 second)?
-Does Jesus know that I am sorry from my soul, even though my brain thought the sinful horrible disgusting thing that my soul and intentions disagrees with?
-Does Jesus know that my mental health makes me think terrible sinful things?
-Will I be forgiven?
-How can I know I am forgiven (If I am) so I don't feel guilty anymore?
I hope Jesus knows i'm sorry and I wasn't thinking right.
Along with my OCD and anxiety, my family and I have experienced demonic spirits in our house in the last months. These demonic spirits always tried to get us away from God.
Have I done the unforgivable sin by thinking like the pharisees (It was once, and only for a second, and I repented and was so incredibly sorry after. Is that enough, or am I doomed)?
Please help me. God bless you for reading, thank you.