Hello everyone. I hope everyone who reads this is doing well. I am new to this and am seeking some advice as well as a means of venting.
I am 23-years-old and have been married for a little over a year. Before meeting my husband, I was an atheist, and he brought me to Christ. We did live together a while before getting engaged and then married. My husband knew that cohabitating was wrong and urged me to go back to my parents' house, but my insecurities prevented me; I thought that he was going to cheat on me if I wasn't monitoring him 24/7 (he hadn't given me any reason to believe this would be the case; my past boyfriend got another girl pregnant while we were dating, and I had terrible trust issues because of this and other past traumas).
A little background on my husband: he experienced some trauma while he was a little boy and has been addicted to inappropriate contentography since he was 9-years-old. While we were dating he had sex with a transsexual prostitute. I should have just ran then, but God gave me the verse Proverbs 19:11--The discretion of a man deferreth his anger; and it is his glory to pass over a transgression. I felt like we were supposed to stay together. Then when we were engaged, it happened again. And then a few weeks ago, it happened again.
I am so confused now. I know it's a spiritual matter. I firmly believe that homosexuality is demonic oppression. Furthermore, the only time he acts out like this is when he's been separated from God, whether it be smoking weed or drinking, not reading the Bible, not praying, etc.
I know I am all over the place in my writings, but I guess when it boils down to it, I'm just wondering what to do. Because he broke the marriage covenant, I have legal grounds to get divorced before God, but for some reason I don't want to. I feel foolish because the same thing keeps happening, and I keep sticking around. But for some reason I feel like God put me in this guy's life to help him out. If I decide to stay with him, we will need a lot of work. A lot of prayer. A lot of counseling. A lot of therapy. A lot of talking.
Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? I mean when he is submitted to God, he is an amazing man. He is caring, dedicated, driven, patient, kind, and an all-around good guy, but when he slips back into the world his back trackings are like out-of-this-world crazy.
Prayers. Encouragement. Advice. Thoughts. Anything would be greatly appreciated.
May God bless all of you, and if there's anything I can help any of you with, please don't hesitate to ask.
I am 23-years-old and have been married for a little over a year. Before meeting my husband, I was an atheist, and he brought me to Christ. We did live together a while before getting engaged and then married. My husband knew that cohabitating was wrong and urged me to go back to my parents' house, but my insecurities prevented me; I thought that he was going to cheat on me if I wasn't monitoring him 24/7 (he hadn't given me any reason to believe this would be the case; my past boyfriend got another girl pregnant while we were dating, and I had terrible trust issues because of this and other past traumas).
A little background on my husband: he experienced some trauma while he was a little boy and has been addicted to inappropriate contentography since he was 9-years-old. While we were dating he had sex with a transsexual prostitute. I should have just ran then, but God gave me the verse Proverbs 19:11--The discretion of a man deferreth his anger; and it is his glory to pass over a transgression. I felt like we were supposed to stay together. Then when we were engaged, it happened again. And then a few weeks ago, it happened again.
I am so confused now. I know it's a spiritual matter. I firmly believe that homosexuality is demonic oppression. Furthermore, the only time he acts out like this is when he's been separated from God, whether it be smoking weed or drinking, not reading the Bible, not praying, etc.
I know I am all over the place in my writings, but I guess when it boils down to it, I'm just wondering what to do. Because he broke the marriage covenant, I have legal grounds to get divorced before God, but for some reason I don't want to. I feel foolish because the same thing keeps happening, and I keep sticking around. But for some reason I feel like God put me in this guy's life to help him out. If I decide to stay with him, we will need a lot of work. A lot of prayer. A lot of counseling. A lot of therapy. A lot of talking.
Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? I mean when he is submitted to God, he is an amazing man. He is caring, dedicated, driven, patient, kind, and an all-around good guy, but when he slips back into the world his back trackings are like out-of-this-world crazy.
Prayers. Encouragement. Advice. Thoughts. Anything would be greatly appreciated.
May God bless all of you, and if there's anything I can help any of you with, please don't hesitate to ask.
