Want to change my life

I will pray for you. It's brave to share issues like this. You are right, God will not give up on you, he won't even get disgusted with you, any more than we can feel contemptuous of a disease like cancer. He sees it as something killing you and wants you to be free.

Hey man, I've been right where you are. And I promise you, there is a way out. And I promise you, God still loves you. We may not understand that depth of love, but it is real. . .I promise.

The first thing you need to do is put a filter on your computer. You have to put something physical in place to stop you from looking at inappropriate content. You are too weak right now to do it yourself. You need to put something to block access. Turn off the internet for 30-60 days if you need to. Turn off the TV for 30-60 days if you need to. You have to do something to cut off the flow of inappropriate content into your life.

Second, find an accountability partner. You need someone you know will ask you every day how you are doing. You need someone to be accountable to.

Third, begin reading the Bible. You need to replace the bad (inappropriate content) with something good (scripture). That is how you begin to get set free. That is how you begin to transform your mind. Begin reading the Gospels. Read a chapter a day, or whatever you want. The key is to read every day. You have to not only get rid of the bad, but you also replace it with the good.

Give yourself 30 days doing all three things listed above and you will see a difference. I promise.

It's a tragedy that one's sexuality can be seen as a huge barrier between you and God. Yours is a very common issue as a single male. Feel free to PM me if you want exchange some thoughts on you, sexuality and God.

John
NZ

I'm in the same boat. The best thing to do is always to remember to have hope. Talk with people you trust, and every time you fall. Look for ways to better your self and to prevent your self from looking for inappropriate content. Some practical advise I have for you is to read the bible to reinforce your self. As one person posted earlier, put up blocks on your computer. If you can't get away from the internet, Then I suggest filters. I have an extension called block site. It makes it so when you add a site to it. It will redirect you to another chosen site. The only other thing I can say is try and keep your self preoccupied with other things. There is not much else I can say other than then to keep trying as it is a battle that will rage on for a long time. Also know that there are others who deal with it as well. I hope things go well for you and know my prayers are with you.