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abovetheclouds
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I know there is healthy remorse which leads to repenting of sins but there is also a shame for me that is overwhelming where disapproval feels like an acid burning my skin. A harsh comment or a rebuke, even a just one, can cause me to feel down for a long time. I guess its kind of the sin of pride and self concern but I also sense a deep root of toxic shame in my life. Rebuke was used as a tool of abuse when I was growing up. I hate how it makes me feel and is like a wall between me and God. It hurts so bad. I don't know how to deal. Yesterday my pastors wife gave me a well deserved telling off for reacting badly to a perceived rejection, telling me the world doesnrevolve round me. It wqas a telling off meant in love and I deserved it. But one thing she said triggered me because it reminded me of my abuser. I still feel those words she said and my abuser said tormenting me