Recently I came across a list of traits for Borderline Personality Disorder. Reading the facts made it undeniably clear to me that this is what I have. I'm so relieved to finally have a name for what I've been going through for as long as I can remember and it explains so much about why Christianity has been such a struggle for me...the paranoia, OCD and religious obsession, the back and forth between loving and hating God, the "out of it" feeling I have most of the time (which I've figured out is dissociation), the emotional outbursts that I frequently type on here and the intense way of experiencing feelings, etc. I'm so relieved to know that this is treatable.......so relieved.
Not only that but at my new church, God put someone in my life who struggled for a long time with mental illness and is very passionate about helping those who are and removing the stigma placed on them by society. I feel like a weight has been lifted...
Not only that but at my new church, God put someone in my life who struggled for a long time with mental illness and is very passionate about helping those who are and removing the stigma placed on them by society. I feel like a weight has been lifted...