- Mar 11, 2003
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Church was wonderful yesterday. Of course, Church is always wonderful. But I'm getting adjusted to being in the choir. Formerly I had moved near the front of the Church to be able to see my favorite icons better and not be distracted by others (at least until later in the liturgy when that area fills us). In the choir loft, there is chatting - both personal and preparation for the Liturgy, and we are insulated both by sound and sight from the service - it's like being in the Narthex.
But yesterday I was finally able to both really begin to participate in the Liturgy, and also sing. I've "missed" Church in a sense. Our Orthros is an hour shorter than normal (I hope they go back to regular in the Fall!) and with all the distraction in the choir loft, my experience of Church seemed to be about 20% of what I'm used to. I felt like I was starving. I want to stay in the choir, but I need Church. So I'm VERY thankful that I'm starting to learn how to do both!
I've been in the choir since around the end of 2007 - for about 6 months before I was chrismated. I always struggled to not have music with singing (since I love to sing), so I was grateful to be able to see the words and participate with ministry. That said, I have found at times that I don't experience the service in the same way, since I am focused more on the notes and on the words rather than the experience. I have mixed feelings about it . Thankfully we don't have much trouble with the chatting, as we are pretty much within the congregation (just slightly off to the side).
My husband mentioned once that it is really important for people to learn to not be hooked to the liturgy book the entire service, since they can't fully experience the service when they do that. I honestly never tried that before joining the choir. He suggested that I periodically spend time just as a congregation member, rather than in the choir. I have done that now, and it is a completely different experience. Both are wonderful - but they are different.
I've found for me, it is important to have at least one service during Lent, one service during the Nativity fast, and one service outside of that where I just participate in the congregation and don't sing in the choir. I often time that with when my family visits, or when the choir is full with my part (when there is a strong alto singing in the choir). This has been a huge help for reminding me what parts of the service I still need to focus on despite being in the choir.
I'm glad you are learning how to do both! I still struggle with it today so hopefully I will learn to do better soon as well!
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