Hello, I am a 21 year old male.
Recently I moved out of my house for work. I live far away from my family and friends and I live alone in a totally different city. I am so lonely and I have struggled with lust for the longest time. This desire got the best of me over and over. I know I shouldn't be having sex with girls, but I kept having sex......whats worse and I am really ashamed of is that some of these girls are escorts (essentially prostitutes) ......I am disgusted at myself and I don't have the guts to ask God for forgiveness because this happened at around 4 times. I really want to change I really do and I want to be on fire for him and have nothing standing in between me and him.... but then again I always feel hopeless and I am scared that I cannot be forgiven and get another chance.... and I am scared that maybe I caught an STI . I went for testing today and I have to wait for the results but everything makes me scared and I don't know what to do... I really need your prayer and words of help..
Recently I moved out of my house for work. I live far away from my family and friends and I live alone in a totally different city. I am so lonely and I have struggled with lust for the longest time. This desire got the best of me over and over. I know I shouldn't be having sex with girls, but I kept having sex......whats worse and I am really ashamed of is that some of these girls are escorts (essentially prostitutes) ......I am disgusted at myself and I don't have the guts to ask God for forgiveness because this happened at around 4 times. I really want to change I really do and I want to be on fire for him and have nothing standing in between me and him.... but then again I always feel hopeless and I am scared that I cannot be forgiven and get another chance.... and I am scared that maybe I caught an STI . I went for testing today and I have to wait for the results but everything makes me scared and I don't know what to do... I really need your prayer and words of help..
