Hi everyone. I am recovering from cancer in which by God's grace I am pretty much cancer free from what my Oncologist has informed me last week when I saw him. I have one more test to be done next month that will determine that I am cancer free. I am having tremendous emotional pain ever since chemotherapy. My mood has not been the same ever since, I finished chemo in March 2015. For one I lost all my hair from the chemo and I have found that I am allergic to both synthetic and human hair wigs, how is this possible? I mentioned it to my Oncologist last week and he just said to not wear the wigs. How could he say such a thing? I am so upset and frustrated!! I just cannot live without my hair. I know everyone says "oh your hair will grow back", yeah in two to three years, I am not about to wait that long!! I am having to wear headscarves now and I hate them!!! I do not like hats either. I just want my long hair back!! Besides a woman's long hair is a glory to God, I feel ashamed that I am disappointing God because my hair is gone. Is there anything I can do to be able to wear any of my wigs without breaking out in rashes, burning scalp and chills from this darn allergic reaction to the wig? I do not have much of a support system, one friend from church who has some emotional problems herself, I should not talk about her like that so that is all I will say, she is a blessing to me though but I really need someone to really be a good support and help me through this recovery process that is really destroying me emotionally, I am completely isolating myself from everyone practically. I rarely go outside anymore, when before I was diagnosed with cancer I was always out doing something. I am suppose to start college this summer, returning to school from being a displaced homemaker and needing to gain some gainful employment skills. I am actually afraid to go outside now. I am seeing a therapist but there is not much improvement in seeing her right now. I just want to SCREAM!!!! I pray to God every day and night for his help. Right now I just do not even look forward to the next day. What is worse is that when I actually do manage to get outside, people stare at me, one for being blind, I use a white cane for mobility, and two for wearing a headscarf and they think I am some kind of religious freak or something. I have a little sight in one eye, that is how I can tell they are staring at me. I am almost tempted to just put up with the allergy attacks and live in misery while I wear the wig. Please forgive me for sounding selfish and ranting and complaining but this needed to come out.
Angelsue
Angelsue