Battling OCD but scared

While i cant personally give you any advice as i have not gone through any ERP or CBT, you should check out seajoy and gracealones old posts. They have given a lot of reassurance to other people going through similar therapies as you are. From what i heard tho, its not a matter of what you say, its a matter of what you believe. Besides, they wouldnt be able to even read that verse out loud during church on Sundays if it was just a matter of saying the words.

Hi,

I have been through all this sort of thing ... feeling like I had blasphemed the Holy Spirit. But it is all just a lie that Satan uses to trap believing Christians in a whirlpool of fear. God rescued me from it.

The following website lists the arguments that all sin is forgivable, and talks about the unpardonable sin. http://www.futureandahope.net/unforgivable_sin.php

Hey mate, I just did this same thing tonight. I read a book that said we have to confront our fears through ERP. The author was struggling with doubts that God existed, so she thought to herself, 'Yep, I'm an atheist. I don't believe in God.' (things of that nature). Well, part of my OCD is with the unpardonable sin. Nobody can seem to agree on what it is, exactly, but as soon as I read a take that it meant that Jesus got his powers from Satan, the thoughts kept coming into my head even though I KNOW they aren't true. Well, I decided to try ERP. I thought to myself, 'Yeah, yeah, obviously Jesus got his powers--' I can't even type it out, but you get the idea.

I prayed to God before I did it, telling Him that I don't really believe what I was about to do, and I prayed after and apologized. Maybe that 'cancels out' the ERP...I don't know. I still feel nervous about it, but God definitely knows that you and I weren't actively trying to say that about Jesus; we're just trying to get a grip on our OCD. God knows everything! He knows everything we've done, everything we're doing, and everything we're going to do. He knew you were going to say that in therapy, and He knew you were going to feel bad for having done so. I hope this helps a little. Even as I type it, I can feel my own doubts creeping in, but THAT IS OCD. It's aka 'the doubting disease'--fitting, right?