So I found my husband of 5 years has been cheating on me for all 5 years of our marriage. One of the affairs was with a friend and the other 2 were co-workers. The one co-worker he said he was in love with her. I found this all out while 5 months pregnant with our third child. He told me he was sorry and that he always loved me and put me first. That he only wants to be with me. We tried seeing a professional to help us but he got angry and told me he would no longer go. I have stayed with him as I believe that I should forgive him and love him as Christ loves us. I just can't stop these feelings of numbness. I want to love him, I just don't know how to anymore. I pray everyday as I want to keep my family together. This is the hardest hurdle I have yet to endure and I don't know if I'm strong enough to overcome. We haven't told anyone of his betrayal so I have no one to talk to. I feel so alone and numb.