So I have been unable to have a bible for a long time, and I could read the bible online but firstly my eyes get strained secondly it's not the same as holding the heart of God in your hands. I do not see the bible as a book I see it as God's heart. See when I first became saved I read the bible I devoured every word I read I felt as it feed my soul as if giving me the finest foods I was reading it nonstop so hungry and enjoying his words so much. but after a month for some reason this suddenly stopped I was so confuse I had no idea why this happened.
Ever since then I could never read it like that before. I read it hoping and believing I was reading with the holy spirit just as many do but I saw how so many ppl have said this yet there is a hundred different interpretations for a single scripture and so I saw I wasn't reading with the holy spirit at all.
I then had an expereince I have had many of these experiences and so I was called by some ppl a seer but I don't exactly know what a seer is or what he does for God and such so I kind of disregarded it. I was sitting on my bed with the bible open and I closed my eyes and put my hand on it and I saw in my minds eye something amazing I saw such power and love coming from the bible endlessly in the form of fire and the fire consumed me entirely I opened my eyes and they too were like fire. with these eyes of fire I could read the bible like the back of my hand there was nothing in it I could not understand no secret I did not perceive I saw and understood it all I saw also God's power flowing through the pages like a river.
This to me back then seemed like no big deal yet at the same time it felt very prophetic. Ever since then I haven't read it that much tbh, I read scriptures online and such but I can't read it like a book. But even so without hardly reading the bible there were truths revealed to me just by spending time with God about his word, how one scripture has more power than a nuke how when you hold the bible in your hand you are holding the very heart of God and just earlier today as I was praying to God about this I saw in my mind the lambs blood splattered on all the pages in the bible.
Now like I said I have been unable to have one for a long time and I wanted one really bad, a good friend on here whom I will not say out of respect said he would get me one and mail it to me even if it was a five dollar bible I didn't care I was so happy to get one. so six days later my bible comes in and boy my friend went all out he got me an 80 dollar worth study bible. I want to be able to read it but I only can read Psalms and have my spirit affected.
I can't read the bible like I did before like a lot of ppl do thinking we are reading through the holy spirit when we aren't. If I am going to read it I need to do so with God's eyes not mine with his mind and heart not my own I need the holy spirit to leap inside me with every word from God I devour I need to have my heart and soul touched and affected by his words or else I cannot read it at all.
I can maybe read Psalms possibly proverbs but that's about it, I have sought after God's heart exhaustively I have taken on the title seeker of God's heart because that is literally who I am in him. and I never realized that the heart I was seeking was something I would not touch. I want to read his heart I want to search it to my hearts content I want to see him and see him work inside me with every page every paragraph every scripture.
God knows my request he knows what I so desperately want but is it his will?
Ever since then I could never read it like that before. I read it hoping and believing I was reading with the holy spirit just as many do but I saw how so many ppl have said this yet there is a hundred different interpretations for a single scripture and so I saw I wasn't reading with the holy spirit at all.
I then had an expereince I have had many of these experiences and so I was called by some ppl a seer but I don't exactly know what a seer is or what he does for God and such so I kind of disregarded it. I was sitting on my bed with the bible open and I closed my eyes and put my hand on it and I saw in my minds eye something amazing I saw such power and love coming from the bible endlessly in the form of fire and the fire consumed me entirely I opened my eyes and they too were like fire. with these eyes of fire I could read the bible like the back of my hand there was nothing in it I could not understand no secret I did not perceive I saw and understood it all I saw also God's power flowing through the pages like a river.
This to me back then seemed like no big deal yet at the same time it felt very prophetic. Ever since then I haven't read it that much tbh, I read scriptures online and such but I can't read it like a book. But even so without hardly reading the bible there were truths revealed to me just by spending time with God about his word, how one scripture has more power than a nuke how when you hold the bible in your hand you are holding the very heart of God and just earlier today as I was praying to God about this I saw in my mind the lambs blood splattered on all the pages in the bible.
Now like I said I have been unable to have one for a long time and I wanted one really bad, a good friend on here whom I will not say out of respect said he would get me one and mail it to me even if it was a five dollar bible I didn't care I was so happy to get one. so six days later my bible comes in and boy my friend went all out he got me an 80 dollar worth study bible. I want to be able to read it but I only can read Psalms and have my spirit affected.
I can't read the bible like I did before like a lot of ppl do thinking we are reading through the holy spirit when we aren't. If I am going to read it I need to do so with God's eyes not mine with his mind and heart not my own I need the holy spirit to leap inside me with every word from God I devour I need to have my heart and soul touched and affected by his words or else I cannot read it at all.
I can maybe read Psalms possibly proverbs but that's about it, I have sought after God's heart exhaustively I have taken on the title seeker of God's heart because that is literally who I am in him. and I never realized that the heart I was seeking was something I would not touch. I want to read his heart I want to search it to my hearts content I want to see him and see him work inside me with every page every paragraph every scripture.
God knows my request he knows what I so desperately want but is it his will?