So I am a pretrib rapture believer or was, see in my almost three years of being saved I have had a vision of the rapture I have had many- and when I say many I mean many rapture dreams I even had an experience where he showed me I was his bride for two whole days I felt like a bride even though I am a boy and in another rapture dream he showed me I was royalty for two whole days I knew what royalty felt like it was an amazing feeling that is very hard to explain.
You would think with all of this I would come to my senses and truly believe that we can finally go home soon not to mention all the end time dreams he gave me but see I was obsessed with going to youtube and watching rapture dreams and visions and listening to all sorts of so called prophets and teachers which most if not all were not legit but i was not discerning back then.
So as time went by as these ppl made all sorts of claims about how close the rapture is and when the timeline or season would be only for them to fail big time then they say God said to them he is delaying and such ect. My soul became more and more weary as time went on the rapture was no longer hope for me but a curse because thinking about it made me exhausted and eventually I lost all hope. These ppl have no idea the damage they do to ppl.
I am very homesick and I long to be with him so very badly I mean so badly, I also am very weary sad and tired from the harshness of life but more than All I want and all I care about is him and being with him. However no matter how much I want to believe or rather know that we can go home soon I simply cannot it's gone. I tried to go to God for help but he is silent for a long time and I know the scriptures but it doesn't help and I tried to go to other believers for help thinking God may use them to speak to me but no one has been willing to help.
I simply want to know why I should believe that he could come for us soon. If I could wake up every day treating each day as if it's my last because he could very well take us home today i would have a peace I haven't known in a very long time but he hasn't spoken to my heart for a long time about this so is it maybe because it simply isn't time or something?
You would think with all of this I would come to my senses and truly believe that we can finally go home soon not to mention all the end time dreams he gave me but see I was obsessed with going to youtube and watching rapture dreams and visions and listening to all sorts of so called prophets and teachers which most if not all were not legit but i was not discerning back then.
So as time went by as these ppl made all sorts of claims about how close the rapture is and when the timeline or season would be only for them to fail big time then they say God said to them he is delaying and such ect. My soul became more and more weary as time went on the rapture was no longer hope for me but a curse because thinking about it made me exhausted and eventually I lost all hope. These ppl have no idea the damage they do to ppl.
I am very homesick and I long to be with him so very badly I mean so badly, I also am very weary sad and tired from the harshness of life but more than All I want and all I care about is him and being with him. However no matter how much I want to believe or rather know that we can go home soon I simply cannot it's gone. I tried to go to God for help but he is silent for a long time and I know the scriptures but it doesn't help and I tried to go to other believers for help thinking God may use them to speak to me but no one has been willing to help.
I simply want to know why I should believe that he could come for us soon. If I could wake up every day treating each day as if it's my last because he could very well take us home today i would have a peace I haven't known in a very long time but he hasn't spoken to my heart for a long time about this so is it maybe because it simply isn't time or something?