isolating

Is there anyone here who isolates?
I do all the time and it is getting worse for me. I hate this boarding home and the tenants in it as they leave me out most of the time and look down on me.
So I hide in my room most of the time when the other tenants are awake. I drug myself to sleep when they are awake so I don't have to deal with their judging me. I have created curtains around my bed and moved a lot of my furniture around my bed as well and created a simi wall, kind of like a barrier. I have been like this ever since I was a child. When I was in school and i Had to sit around people that I didn't like cause they use to tease me (make fun of me) I use to put my text books up to hide, like a fort, I would put the book open (90 degree angle) and put a notebook on the top as the fort and hide in there. I use to hide in the closet or under a table or behind chairs when I didn't want to deal with issues that bothered me either.
So that is a bit of my history about isolating and all.
I think a lot of this has to do anxiety and depression.
Is there anyone else here who isolates like I described?
What has caused you to isolate like this?
PS please be KIND towards me in your post as I am a very delicate person and I can't handle harsh post, it makes me panic and very depressed! Thank you kindly!

Chococat said:

I'm so sorry you feel so bad Petal ((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))). I wouldn't say I isolate as such but sometimes I feel like I just want to not be noticed by anyone for fear they will judge me because I am kind of plain and overweight. Also I tend to run away from situations I don't want to deal with and sometimes end friendships after a disagreement because I am too ashamed to face the people and have ended a few friendships because of that. Like you I hate it when people leave me out.

I really don't know what advice to give you apart from that you really MUST stop using your meds in that manner as it could be very dangerous because, for one, you could accidentally OD and I certainly don't want to lose you in that way as I value your friendship. Plus abusing your meds could make your anxiety and depression even worse or at the very least it could stop them from working properly for you when you need them.

I really wish I lived near you as we could spend time together and maybe even go spider spotting together when the weather is nice. Anyway I'm praying you can move from that boarding house really soon as it is obviously not doing you any good. Have you contacted any organisations that deal with housing vulnerable people and explained the situation to them as they may be able to help you? In the meantime I am praying for you. Love you sis ((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))

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Thank you so much my dear sweet loving sister!!! you are always so wise and VERY loving, like a big sis! You are so right I so wish we lived close to each other I would love to hang out with you and go spider watching too. Wow that would be such fun. Maybe you may even get my to hold a spider (Orb or something)
You are a huge blessing to me sis. I am praying for you sweet sis, I will be more careful with my meds. 's <3

Jeshu said:

Yeah isolating ourselves is common when we are depressed, the more depressed I am the more I seek to isolate myself from others, it has to do with survival and also fear that others might hurt you.

Try still to be a blessing unto others by praying for their well being and not to believe the gossip you hear in your head about what others are saying or thinking about you. It is very important that you keep seeking to love others even if they have hurt you in the past. Forgive people their trespasses and God will forgive you yours.

Wishing you God's love and strength to cope with your issues Flower.

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Thank you so much my dear sweet wise bro! You always have logical loving advice!
I am praying for you as well my friend, depression is the worst!
God bless you dear bro
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brinny said:

Awwwwww, bless yer heart, isolating is a coping mechanism when there's a great deal of pain and wounding, and when one feels there is no other safety...it's a protective measure, dear heart. It is what it is. And that is, that it is one of many many ways that we humans deal with unbrearable-ness of one kind or another.

Hugs and prayers, precious (((hug)))

"Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place." ~Zora Neale Hurston

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((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) Thank you so much sister for your wise advice as well! God bless you as well (((((BIG HUGS))))))))

Army Wife said:

Oh sis

I'm praying for you.

Your not the only one who does this. I do it too. Daily even. From my dog and my husband. Just so I can have peace. I hardly ever go out anymore. I have skipped like 3 counseling appointments in the past 3 weeks. So like you I drug myself and sleep the day away. Its hard for me to live in this world.

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(((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))) my dear sweet loving sister! 's I will be praying for you as well, thank you so much for your prayers sis, that really does mean a lot to me. You are a blessing!

miss-a said:

My prayers are with you, Flower. I'm sorry you're having a hard time.

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Thank you sweet sis, for your prayers! God bless you,
Thank you to all for understanding from my point of view. GOD BLESS YOU ALL! (((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))))))