I'm not a Christian, but I want to be.
I look at Christianity as a lifelong commitment, discipline and something worth dying for. I take it very seriously. It's my understanding that as a Christian you're called to be an ambassador for Christ. This means learning his word, understanding the implications of his word and giving up on your own ways. You can't be a very good ambassador if you have your own agenda, right? In my view this is why the repentance of sin is so heavily emphasized, because it takes you away from God. Sin is a violation of a moral ought. There is a way in which things ought to be and not following that ought is sin(evil). I think perhaps the biggest obstacle to God is ourselves, our EGO's, this ability to freely chose our own desires(sin). It's my understanding that you submit to God with all your mind, all your heart and all your spirit.
At my present state I feel like I would make a really crappy ambassador. I can't do any of the aforementioned. I feel really condemned before God and Instead of having love for God, sometimes I feel like there's alienation and even enmity. My relationship with God seems like a very estranged and broken one. Though I accept Jesus I don't think I've entered what's called a "saving relationship" with him.
"22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love,joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,23 gentleness and self-control..."
Yeah, that's not me at all. I will never call myself a Christian until I'm convinced I'm in a saving relationship. I know way too many religious hypocrites and phonies, it's a shame. If I become one I want to be the real deal.
Anyways, hello to everyone. I joined this site in hopes of meeting people who are more mature in the spirit. I don't go to church or have any sort of spiritual mentorship, so I was just hoping I could pick up something from here.
My primary interest are philosophy theology and apologetics. I love having spiritual discussions too.
I look at Christianity as a lifelong commitment, discipline and something worth dying for. I take it very seriously. It's my understanding that as a Christian you're called to be an ambassador for Christ. This means learning his word, understanding the implications of his word and giving up on your own ways. You can't be a very good ambassador if you have your own agenda, right? In my view this is why the repentance of sin is so heavily emphasized, because it takes you away from God. Sin is a violation of a moral ought. There is a way in which things ought to be and not following that ought is sin(evil). I think perhaps the biggest obstacle to God is ourselves, our EGO's, this ability to freely chose our own desires(sin). It's my understanding that you submit to God with all your mind, all your heart and all your spirit.
At my present state I feel like I would make a really crappy ambassador. I can't do any of the aforementioned. I feel really condemned before God and Instead of having love for God, sometimes I feel like there's alienation and even enmity. My relationship with God seems like a very estranged and broken one. Though I accept Jesus I don't think I've entered what's called a "saving relationship" with him.
"22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love,joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,23 gentleness and self-control..."
Yeah, that's not me at all. I will never call myself a Christian until I'm convinced I'm in a saving relationship. I know way too many religious hypocrites and phonies, it's a shame. If I become one I want to be the real deal.
Anyways, hello to everyone. I joined this site in hopes of meeting people who are more mature in the spirit. I don't go to church or have any sort of spiritual mentorship, so I was just hoping I could pick up something from here.
My primary interest are philosophy theology and apologetics. I love having spiritual discussions too.